"I don't know if the others parents want them traveling in a tour bus with you guys. Only because of how you look but I will be able to travel with you guys," Ryan tells Jayy. "Why don't you have to ask your parent,"Jayy asks out of pure curiosty. "Well I'm eighteen and I really don't give a fuck of what my parents like or dont like and I never did,"I say.
Jayy grabs Ryan's hand who grabs Autumn's hand, Autumn grabs Cassie's hand and Cassie grabs Aaron's hand. Jayy tehm leads all of them to the tour bus where Dahvie and Jeffree are chilling. Jayy opens the tour buses door and motions for us to enter. Dahvie sits on the couch half dressed eating salad and Jeffree sits at the table smoking a blunt.
"Who the hell? No that doesn't matter. What the hell is going on up in this bitch," Dahvie asks looking at Jayy. "I brought a few fans back. I though you wouldn't care,"Jayy responds to the question. "Oh believe me I don't care but a little warning would have been nice,"Dahvie says clearly a little annoyed
Jayy
I never thought a drag queen would grab my intrest but Ryan is just to amazing and so far I love everything about him. I'm so confused on what I want right now. I want Dahves but I also want Ryan which is just a little weird since i just met him.
"Jeffree tell me you're not smoking my last blunt because if thats the is will have to kick your motherfucking ass,"Jayy says with a frown. "Babydoll calm down its just weed i'm sure one of these beautiful fans will have some," Jeffree says looking straight at Ryan. "Well hey there what's your name,"Jeffree asks Ryan clearly taking intrest in him. I mentally kick myself for not knowing that this would happen. "My my my name is Ryan," Ryan manages to stutter.
Jeffree gets up hands me the blunt and walks over to Ryan and takes his hand. Jeffree smiles and looks directly at me and goes,"you sure know how to pick up cute guys." "Hey why you wearing long sleeves when its hot as balls out outside," Jeffree asks Ryan.
Ryan doesn't respond. I look at jeffree begging him with my eyes to leave Ryan alone, not to scare him off. Jeffree unbuttons Ryan's top shirt and pulls the sleeves off so that Ryan is in nothing but a short sleeved blunts bitches and bathsalts shirt. Jeffree lifts Ryans right arm and immeditly drops it back down. I walk over to Ryan and hug him tightly. Jeffree walks over to Dahvie and whispers something his ear. Ryan stands completly still not saying a word just stands there looking at Jeffree. I take Ryans arm and start to kiss his cuts.
"You're better than that. you're worth so much more. I don't care what anybody else tells you,"I tell Ryan. "Ryan I thought you quit.You told us you did,"Cassie and Aaron say at the same time.
Ryan runs off the tour bus in tears not saying a word. I stand there pissed as hell at Jeffree.
"You always have to fuckin ruin everything. I really like him but no you have to make feel vulenrable you have to do everything you shouldn't do. I fuckin hate you get off our tour bus and go fuckin find him,"I yell at Jeffree in a fit of anger.
Jeffree walks out of the tour bus to look for Ryan. I get a bottle of Vodka open it and start drinking from the bottle. Dahvie sits next to me and wraps his arms around me. I lay my head against his shoulder and start crying.
"He always has to do this he ruins everything I feel bad though.I over reacted. I don't really hate him.I just wish he would leave the guys I take intrest in alone,"I say through tears. "Jayy I don;t want to hurt anyones feelings but after this tour is over I think it be best if we took a break from Jeffree that way you don't keep getting hurt," Dahvie says trying to calm Jayy down.
Jeffree
I feel like such a bitch becasue I always do this. I should've let the kid be.I finally spot Ryan sitting in the parking lot with a bottle of whiskey and a razor against his wrist. Wow i really feel like an ass I made him cut himself more.
"Ryan," I say softly. He looks up at me startled and drops the razor. "What Jeffree," Ryan says with a sharp bite to his tone. "Jayy wants you to come back and so do I. Jayys worried about. And I'm sorry what I did was out of line,"I say.
Ryan gets up pulls down his sleeves picks up the bottle of whiskey.He walks next to me in silence drinking from the bottle.We get back to the tour bus and we find Jayy crying and drunk of his ass. Jayy looks at me smiles and walks over to Ryan and hugs him.
"I'm so glad your safe,"Jayy says.
Ryan smiles and Jayy grabs his hand. Fast as anything Jayy pulls Ryan into the bathroom and pulls his sleeve up. Jayy then puts Ryans arm under warm running water over his cuts then he takes out vaseline and puts all over Ryans arm and wraps it. Then Jayy goes into his room and passes out.
