My Second Chance

#31 The Starting Of Life In A City

Abracadabra! Here's another chapter for you... Ah... The wonders of magic... xD Enjoy! P.S I really need votes. Please be a kind person and vote, kay? ;)

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Ryder's P.O.V

"I love you Ryder... Don't forget that, okay? I love you..." I stared at Sapphire who was looking at me with sadness and longing in her blue gorgeous eyes. I didn't know what to say. She was the one who rejected me in the first place. What the fuck is she saying now. But the sadness in her eyes were really weighing my heart down. I clenched my jaw tightly.

"I wasn't the one to reject a mate." I snapped. She flinched at the hurt in my voice. "I know. And a million apologies won't help. This is the last time you'll see me. I just wanted to say goodbye." She smiled sadly. "I haven't even marked you yet, you don't have the power to enter my dreams Sapphire. This dream," I gestured to my surroundings, "is fake. Why am I even dreaming about you?!" "I wouldn't take back anything if I could. I would've done the same thing." Her voice breaking on the last sentence. I felt a sharp stab of pain in my heart. What did she mean that she would've done the same thing over again?! Doesn't she know that I'm hurting inside really much?! I wanted to call her a heartless bitch so much... but I couldn't. As much as I hated her, a small part of my heart would remind me that I still loved her. And I still did. That's how pathetic I was. "I don't care about you anymore." I said coldly and hurt flashed in her eyes. It took everything to stop myself from apologizing for the harsh words. "I know." She whispered and took a step towards me. I instinctively took a step back to maintain the distance between us. Not because I couldn't bear being near her...but because I'm scared I'll lose the tiny self control I had left and crash our lips together. "Please. Don't step away from me. This is the last chance I get to see you." She pleaded with tear filled eyes. Her crying shouldn't have affected me... but it did, more than it should. "It shouldn't really effect you like that, should it? Isn't that the reason you never let me finish the mating process? Cause you never even loved me." I scoffed. Disbelief shone brightly in her eyes. "No... no... never assume that. I love you, really. All the things I said earlier was just to cut off the feelings we had." The beautiful angel in front of me whispered. I shook my head at her words, "and did that help?" I couldn't help bit question bitterly. "No." She said it so softly that I almost missed it.

She took a step forwards and I stood my ground. Fine, she doesn't want me to move away, I won't. It's just a fucking dream. What harm could it bring?

She took small timid steps towards me until there was only three centimetres between us. She stood on her tippy toes and pressed her lips to mine. I stood my ground, not returning the kiss. I knew I would lose control if I did. "I'll miss your kisses." She whispered.

"Well, I won't." I gritted out. That's a total lie. I would miss her kisses. I would miss her hugs. Her body heat even. Because I know that I won't be able to touch her now that she rejected me. "I know. I did something unforgivable." She murmured. I didn't make a move to acknowledge her words and stared ahead. She trailed a hand down my chest and grabbed her hand, not letting it to continue explore the grounds it intended to. She looked up at me. I was taken aback by her eyes. They looked so... real. Not at all like I was dreaming.

"I don't mind if you find another Luna. No, you must find another Luna. Someone capable and stronger. Someone who wouldn't hurt you." She whispered softly. "Like you?" I couldn't help but ask harshly. "Like me." She looked down guiltily. "If you meant what you said earlier. About you loving me, why would you break off with me?" I gripped her hand tighter. I couldn't help but think, this dream feels so real...

"I have my reasons. But it's to protect you from me." Her voice firmer. "I don't need protecting. I am an Alpha." I growled. "Sometimes Alphas need help too." She mumbled. "I don't care what you have to say. I'm waking up. This dream isn't worth my time. You aren't worth my time." I muttered. "Okay. I'll leave. But Ryder, I did it to protect you. Please, keep yourself safe. Find a new Luna quickly so she can help you with the pack. I've failed the task obviously. Just.. take care." She chocked back a sob. "I love you." She added silently but I heard anyway.