Finding love

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You succeeded in breaking me and I succeeded in not healing

Arabella

It's been a two months since I started working with William we are closer now but more like best friends even though sometimes I feel like we have a bit of chemistry here and there and it was always fun with Adera here. She always knows what to say and when.
But today as I got dressed for work I doubt she has anything to say to cheer me up.

Today was one of the days I hated the most even though I like it alittle the 18th of November. Maybe this one won't be as devastating as the rest.

I got dressed and headed to work without talking to anyone at home but me being me I couldn't do the same at work. I never really let people know how I feel. I always keep my problems and hurt to myself.

It's better that way even when the sadness is eating me up I don't say a word and I'll keep smiling and making sure everyone around me is happy.

" Hey Adera how's your morning so far?" With a smile etched on my face I approach her.

" Nothing new just the usual" She absentmindedly types on her phone.

I walk over to Liam's door and knock saying a quick good morning before heading to my office.

I'm sad and I can't cry at work might as well work my ass off today to keep me busy.

I quietly start working on the papers I picked up from Adera in the morning hoping it would help.

I didn't realize that the day had dragged along until my phone rang and I saw the time.

Adera: yeah hey mum

Mum: Hey honey how you doing? We are worried about you my love

Adera: Mum I'm fine I swear I'm done with work and I'm coming home but I'm fine I promise.

I immediately cut the phone and I felt my wall crack but I had to put it back up this wasn't my bedroom.

I didn't wait for Liam to give me any more work I just left.

I didn't want to go home early so I went to a cafe and sat down and tried to read anything to get my mind off of it and so far I was doing good until I saw Emilia sitting across the table.

" Hey peanut thought your home ? " A concerned look across her face as she said.

" Clearly I'm not Emilia so is it wrong am I kid to have curfew or what?" I raise my voice at her already offended bt the question.

I compose myself and answer her. " No Em I'm just getting coffee and then I'll go home what are you doing here are you meeting someone?"

" Actually yeah I'm meeting Adera and Drake wanna join us?" She cautiously asks and as though I'll break and I hate it. I don't want any one to pity me I don't need pity.

I grab my bag and head to my car not wanting to stay there even for a minute.

" I'm sorry ok but your really fragile right now and I don't want to say anything to annoy you but clearly I have but if you need to talk I'm here for you ok but for once let it all out please talk to me rather than being constantly sad I hate seeing you like that your like a sister to me and when you hurt I hurt too. 

Alot was going through my mind I tried to deny it that I still cared that I was hurt every other day but I can't burden them I just can't do that to them but hearing Em speak like that made me realize that I had to atleast let it off my chest and the memories came rushing back.

That's when I broke I just couldn't take it anymore. I cried like there was no tommorow and I didn't even notice that I was being driven by someone that's until I opened my eyes abit and realized I'm in my room my sobs got more quiet and soon enough I was taken over by the darkness.

Emilia

It broke my heart to see her like that and only because of a fucked up asshole who didn't know what he wanted. He could have love her but he dumped her.

" Uh Em is she ok or should we call a doctor?" William asked me and I knew he genuinely cared but maybe he too might not care and be lying but he's her friend for now atleast.

" Yeah she's fine let's head downstairs and I'll get you something to drink" I headed downstairs and sat by the counter.

I could see they all wanted to know what was wrong with her and her mum was almost in tears she knew her daughter was always sad on that day but didn't know why and Ara didn't want to tell anyone about it but it's best if they knew.

"What really happened to her in that highschool Emilia please tell me I'm her mother" I hated it when I saw Pamela so broken Ara will hate me after this but I have to.

" Well I guess I will start from when it all started.
Ara and I had alot of friends at the time and one day we got to meet the seniors at a frat party and one of them caught Ara's attention.

He was called Trevor. They hit it off pretty well. They had everything in common and they both liked each other very much. But since our school was too strict they had to keep their relationship a secret moreso because Ara was on scholarship and she would lose it.

They eventually fell in love. It was beautiful but he wasn't in love with her. She considered him her first love and soon he was her first kiss. She was over the moon but things changed when Trevor left school mid semister and when he came back he had a new a girlfriend.

Ara had been patient and when he came back again for senior year he was changed he wouldn't talk to her so she tried many times to talk to her but he didn't care. 

Until one day when he sent for her and asked to get back with her. She was on cloud nine and accepted immediately and wouldn't listen to us as much as we warned her she was in love and reckless.

I was happy she was happy but I was scared and Trevor was back to normal but different. On our graduation he called Ara and broke up with her and sent her a video of him and some slut having sex.

Apparently he didn't care not for her nor anybody else. But she still loved him. She was heartbroken but she didn't want anyone to know so she was always herself around everyone. That's until I noticed she was loosing weight and it's because she cried herself to sleep and didn't eat but only tried to get Trevor back.

The last stroll was on his birthday which is on the 18th of November. He threw a party and invited her. She didn't tell me cause she knew I would have never accepted and she went alone.

He humiliated her and broke her heart to a thousand more pieces when she literally begged him to stay with her and he only told her to have a good life.

She broke he had broken her. " By the time I was done telling them all what happened Lara was comforting her mom who kept saying she was sorry for making Ara go to the boarding school.  Adera was furious and was lara and William looked hurt and angry at the same time.

I couldn't blame them though I was angry too but there's nothing I could do.

She still loves him and she hates herself for it everyday but maybe she will find someone else soon and get over that piece of shit.

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