Her untold story

Untold (07)

"Anak, are you sure about this?" Mom asked me habang inaayos yung mga gamit ko.

"Yes, ma. May pamilya na siya, hindi rin naman talaga tama 'to eh." I answered her habang tinutulungan siya. Nandito pa rin kami sa bahay namin Jigz.

Someone knocked, mom and I looked at each other, alam naman naming kung sino, I gave her a nod and she opened the door and she went outside. Pumasok si Jigz and he locked the door.

"Love—" He said, I didn't look at him but I cut him off.

"Don't call me that. Please." I answered while I am still fixing my luggage.

"Sorry." He bowed down his head, he kneeled in front of me. "Let me explain first, please." He added. He cried and I still don't look at him.

"You love her." I said dryly, I'm trying not to be sounded hurt but I just can't.

"And I love you more," he said. He tried to hold my hand but I refused.

"I'm sorry, I can't take your love anymore." I said, ganun pala kahirap na mahal niyo yung isa't isa pero hindi na pwede.

I can do everything for him, but I don't want to ruin a family, kawawa yung bata.

"Don't leave me, please. I can file an annulment." He pleaded and hugged me which made me cry even more. Hindi naman kasi ganun kadali yun eh. It's not only about us, meron nang batang involved.

"Jigz, alam mo ba. We almost had a child." I tried to fix my voice pero ang hirap. He looked at me confused. "We had a child before the accident but.. but she can't do it anymore when I had that fucking accident, the doctors can't save her. Seb chose to saved me. I was so mad at him when I learned that, kasi anak ko yun, anak natin, he doesn't have the right to decide." I added, ang sakit pa rin isipin na meron na sana kaming sariling pamilya pero nawala pa rin.

"What?" Hindi makapaniwalang tanong niya. He faced the wall and punch it until his fist bleed.

"I'm so mad and hurt because I lost a child, nothing could ever take the pain, na hindi ko man lang nakita o nahawakan yung anak ko." I cried even more, he hugged me and tried to wipe my tears but it's useless.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry." Paulit ulit niyang binubulong yung mga salitang yan.

"Tapos.. tapos ngayon, I will lose you, again." I said almost whispering. "Sobrang sakit, Jer. Kasi sobrang mahal kita, pero hindi na tayo pwede." I tried to loosen his hug pero lalo niyang hinihigpitan.

"No, please. Let's fix this. Mahal kita. Mahal na mahal kita." He pleaded again.

"Pero may anak ka. Don't lose your child... again. Please." I said. I have to make a sacrifices para sakanya, alam ko masakit mawalan ng anak at ayoko na maramdaman niya yon.

He was stunned for a sec, alam ko mahirap para sakanya 'to pero mas mahirap 'to para sakin.

Mawawalan nanaman ako.

Before, I was so contented and I got everything I wanted for life. Did I take it for granted? Kasi bakit bigla naman nawala lahat sakin?

Finally, I am done fixing all my things. Mom knocked and I opened it, she hugged me without even sayong anything. Hindi man nawala yung sakit nanararamdaman ko, but I am still thankful kasi nanjan yung parents ko for me.

I get my bag and everything.

"Love, please, stay." He said crying, he held my hand.

Wag mo na ako pahirapan, love. Don't beg again, kasi baka bumalik ako. Ang daming masisira. I can't be selfish.