Her untold story

Untold (06)

Masama na ba ako kung pipiliin ko yung kasiyahan ko?

Kami naman kasi dapat talaga, everything was settled back then. Kaya masama na ba ako kung pipilitin ko pa yung mga bagay na dapat nangyari noon pa?

I am really happy that after all these years, ako pa rin ang mahal niya but we both knew annulment is not easy to process. But fuck everything, we chose each other nothing could stand against.

"Love, do you love Eryll?" I asked him sincerely, kasi ako, I knew I loved Seb but that just only because I wasn't in the right state of my mind; and if I was alam ko, hindi ko siya mamahalin.

I stare at him, he was stunned, I was hurt kasi alam ko, once in is life, he loved her more than on how he should. Pinakasalan niya nga eh.

"It's okay, wag mo na sagutin." Kailangan ko intindihin, he explained everything.

I was about to go to kitchen to cook for our breakfast but he held my arm and made me faced him.

"I love you." He said as his eyes said the same thing.

It's enough for me.

I smiled at him.

I went to kitchen and found nothing to cook. I went upstair to asked him if he wants to go to grocery store with me but I heard he's talking to someone. I stand behind the door.

"Ma, make her understand, please. Alam ko na alam mo na Alli ang gusto ko at siya ang pipiliin ko." I smiled.

"Stop, ma. You know I won't marry her if I only knew that Alli was still alive."

"I don't care what she'll think about me."

"Told her, that she wasn't a fucking mistress kasi alam mo, alam niya kung sino ang totoong mahal ko" He shouted. Fuck, me? A mistress? My chest tightens a bit.

I am a fucking mistress of my own lover? Bullshit.

I knew eavesdropping do no good but I wanted to hear everything, I don't believe in the saying that "ignorance is a bliss" because ignorance only makes someone stupid.

"No, ma, we won't go home. She'll sue me? I don't fucking care." He said and ended the call, I heard him punch the wall and cried in silence, I stared at him.

He doesn't deserve this. Alam ko nahihirapan na siya sa set up namin, ako rin naman. Gusto lang namin ipaglaban yung pagmamahalan naming dalawa. Mali na ba yon?

We just wanted to be happy as simple and as complicated as that.

"Love." Hindi ko napansin na lumbas na pala siya, naabutan niya ako na nakaupo sa gilid ng pinto. He stared at me and I guess he had an idea, by look of my puffy eyes.

"I'm sorry, kasalanan ko to. If I didn't lose my memory, hindi tayo aabot sa ganito." I sincerely said, tama naman diba? Kasalanan ko. Sana noon palang inalam ko na ang nagyari sakin, I just waste fucking years.

"No, don't be sorry and this isn't your fault, okay? I love you, we will face this together, I promise." He kneeled and kissed me on my forehead, I hugged him.

Mali 'to, pero kailan ba naging mali yung totoong pagibig?

"Kain na tayo. Hindi ka pa kumakain." He breaks the silence after a minute.

"Walang stock." I answered him and in a snap nandito na kami sa isang mall. Suot ko pa rin yung shirt ko kahapo, he just lends me his shorts kasi naka pants ako.

"Bili muna tayo ng necessities and damit mo bago tayo mag grocery." He said, he leads me sa iba't ibang store para bumili ng damit ko and other stuff, we went to department store para naman is ibang needs namin, I stopped in infant section. He was confused why I was there.