Difference

Part 5

Finally I found my room, but I saw something that I've never wanted to see...

Jahseh pov.

I saw Jaylynn sleeping with some guy, I couldn't see his face in the dark. I woke him up and forced to leave my room. He was scared and dissapeared from the room. I don't think that something happened between them. She couldn't do that to me... I lay down next to her and hugged her.

Billie pov.
Morning

I woke up with a sore head. As far I remember yesterday I drank only one glass of wine. I looked around and realized, that I am not in my house. Of course...
I took a shower, got dressed and left the room. Jah has a big house. In his house probably is 6 rooms and can easily get lost.

I went to the kitchen, because I was hoping to see someone. And clear, Jah was sittint in the kitchen without a shirt. Is he making fun of me? Probably..

- Why are you not sleeping?- I asked.

He just looked at me with tired eyes. I know, something is wrong, but I didn't wanted to ask what happened. Maybe I don't want to be intrusive.

- I couldn't sleep,- he sighed.- but it's okay.

I just smiled and said nothing. I didn't know what to say to Jah. He turned away  and took a tablet with water. Probably medicines for pain. I wonder where Ski is. I feel uncomfortable standing in front of Jahseh.

- How do I get back to home? My parents are probably worried,- I prevented uncomfortable silence.

- Ski will not be able to arrive today. I think Jaylynn could take you home,- he smiled.

 He really thinks I'll be in the same car with Jay?! hell no.. She lied yesterday that I said bad things about her, and now I have to ride with her in the same car? Definetely not..

- I'ts ok. I can go by myself,- I tried to discourage him but I think I will fail AGAIN.  I live only 8 miles away from him. It's not that much.

 He frowned.I know he didn't like the idea, but I had no choice.  So I thought. X disagreed with me. He probably suspects that I secretly hate Jay. So he offered to take me home, although the hangover was not over for him, but he would risk for me. I don't want to die yet, but I don't promise to suffer in one car with his "Girl".Jahseh and I drove to my house in silence. In the past, we spoke for hours, and now we have only a few words. I don't want to move away from him, but I also don't want to admit that I have had a crush for him for half a year now. I can no longer hide my feelings, so I try to be silent. It will be the best.-Hey, Billie? is everything okay between us? You've been behaving differently for a while now..

So I thought he would talk about it someday. Well, that day has dawned. I don't even know what to tell him. Should I lie again or finally tell the truth? Of course I have to lie.  He's in a happy relationship, and I don't want to spoil anything. I just can't stop thinking about it ..

- What? Um, I'm fine ... you just know the tour is coming up and I'm just afraid to fail, - I laughed. Although it wasn't funny.

- I know you will succeed, Billie, I believe you.We came to my house. I said goodbye to Jah and I ran home.I went to my parents 'room. They were still asleep. I smiled and closed the room door.I finally came to my room. I jumped on the bed and lay on my back. I looked at the ceiling. I'll probably explode soon.