My Life, My Love

Telling pt.1

2 years passed. In the past year lost of people started to say that I 'looked gay'. So i kinda got bullied for that. It's nothing major thought. I was never really popular. And I never had many frieds. The last year changed that up quiet a bit thought. I lost almost all my friends. But i still have Jasmin and Ava. They are really all I need. They are there for me, just as I am there for them.

I also learned this year that beieng gay is not a choiche. And that made me feel trapped. I don't want to be gay. I am fine just the way I am. And my parents always told me it is a bad thing. So i cried myself to sleep every night. 

Then the time came that I had to tell my parents, I could not keep this a secret any longer! Jasmin was there with me, cause she knew how strict my parents were and how they would react.

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"Mom, dad? I need to tell you something, can you go sit down for a while?" I asked as soon as dad got home. My hands were shaking so hard! I was so happy Jasmin was here, I would not have the curage to talk to them if it wasn't for her.

"I am gay. There i said it. Now you know why i've been acting strange lately. Because i was scared of your reaction. And before you ask, Jasmin is not my girlfriend. I don't have one. I am just gay."

My parents were shook. I could see in there eyes. But not for long. I could see the anger rising up in my dad's eyes. He yelled at me: "You are a disgrace to this family! Get out of my house! And don't think you'll be getting of this one so easily!"
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I was shook. But i should have expected that. But i didn't. And it hurt really badly. Luckily I asked Jasmin to be there with me. She was there to console me. She even asked if i wanted to stay at here place, but I declined. It was something I had to face. I already drag her into it to much.

My parents don't talk to me. But at least they still let me live there, that is something, right?