A/N: jesus i have such bad writers block :(((((
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its been a week since you've seen alex. you're getting more and more worried. george, will, james, mia, aria, and even fraser have been trying to get into contact with him. but still, you and george were the last people to see him since he left.
"what do you have to say? you're sorry you ruined my fucking life? what do you think one little apology and everything's back to normal? fuck you, fuck everything. i don't even want to live anymore. so I'll just fucking leave."
those words still haunt your mind, hoping he hasn't done it. you absolutely love alex. you love alex. how on earth are you going to tell george? what if alex is actually gone? did you fuck up his life that badly? you need sleep its been over 24 hours since you slept because you've been too busy over thinking, or being horrified about what you've just done. as you crawl into bed you begin to reminisce on the memories you had of alex wrapping his arms around you as you watched a movie and dozed off. how you miss those days. your throat burns and your eyes begin to flood with tears. this is the hardest you've cried in a while. but it feels kinda nice to just let everything go. you get tired and fall asleep.
"(Y/N) get up! now!" you hear will yell as he pushes you slightly. "go away i feel like absolute shit." you say covering your head with alex's white duvet. its so soft but extremely heavy at the same time. the duvet muffles wills voice but you can make out one sentence. "we found him!" at that small sliver of hope you jump out of the bed and hug will. "i knew you guys could do it! thank you so much. when can i see him? is he okay? whats going on?" you ask with a thousand questions running through your brain. "he's fine, but (Y/N) we have to tell you something, alex he, uh, kinda doesn't want to see you. he also doesn't want us to tell you where he is. he said something about you choosing george? do you know what that's about?" your heart starts racing. your eyes fill with salty tears. "i didn't pick george. i love alex. he will always be my first choice."
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darling {ON HOLD}
Random{lowercase intended} (Y/N) is a confident girl who has just moved to London, little did she know she moved right next to her idols. im so sorry i just sorta stopped watching the eboys as much but ill come back with it i promise
