I wish I wasnt in love with her.
Then it wouldnt hurt every time I see her.
I wish shed just be honest with me and tell me what she wants.
That she doesnt actually want me. That this is a one sided love story.
That she doesn't love me the way I love her. That she could live without me.
That she doesnt actually see us together than trying to "protect me" than trying to not hurt me.
Because this hurts me more than being told.
I'm in limbo.
I dont know how she feels.
How can you go from cuddling with someone like that. be intertwined. no space between our bodies. talking about how she wants me to meet her family to not letting me touch her.
To bringing her sister to every single one of our hangouts like she doesnt want to be alone with me. I dont know what to do. I wish I could just quiet the pain for just a little bit.
