YOU'RE NOT MY BROTHER!!!

Jin

I sat down next to Jennie on the bench. We were silent for a bit before she spoke up in a low voice "Why did you do it?" I was confused about what she was talking about. "Jen, I don't know what your talking about." I said looking at her. She looked up at me "You and Appa both said you loved me. Then why did you leave?" she asked her voice cracking. I thought she was okay with me leaving. "Jen, I thought you wanted me to debut." I said, She sniffled "Yea but I didn't know that you wanted to leave forever." tears were in her eyes. "Jen, sweetie who told you that I wanted to leave you? Leaving you there knowing Appa would always be busy was the hardest part. I wanted to keep you with me but I couldn't. I left worried about how you would be but I reminded myself that you hand Noona, hyung, Chan, Jae and Areum."

"Don't lie to me." Her voice was sharp "Mom told me that you were tired of taking care of me. You never did things a normal teenager would have done so you left. You told her to take care of me and that you were done with me." I looked at her shocked "Jen I never thought of you as a burden. You've always been a reminder of Eomma. You always reminded me that Eomma loved us and that we had each other even if the world left us alone. I spent my teenage years taking care of you because I wanted to. I never regretted a thing. All my friends loved your company and I did do all the things a teenager would do. You never stopped me."

"Jen why did you move to boarding?" I asked her. She wiped her tears before looking at me. "After you left I would spend a lot of time in your room. I would still spend time with Appa but not as much. One day Mom made us dinner because Eonni had gone home for the weekend. She forgot I was allergic to seafood. I didn't have dinner and Appa shouted at me for being ungrateful. He told me I was always so picky with food like Eomma and that I should be grateful like Jisoo. Mom came to my room that night and said something about how boarding would be a good way to get away from everyone. Then she told me how you left me. Jisoo always told me how you had sent her something every weekend and I began to feel like you both hated me so I left."

"I should have known!" I said rubbing my temple "Jen those gifts were always for you. The postcards, the letters. Everything. I always disliked those two. I knew they were bad news. They got the two of us away from Appa and now they spend all the time with him like a happy family. All this time they told me you blamed me for Eomma. I never believed her but once you stopped coming home for the weekends I stopped visiting as well." By now Jen was crying hurt that the woman she called her mother would remove her from the family like that. I pulled her in for a hug . 

After some time we arrived home. Jen was pulled in for a hug by Areum "Don't you ever do that again. I came here and Eonni was crying. I thought you..." I knew what she was thinking about. Three years ago Jen had tried to kill herself. Her friends had brought her back but the fear of loosing her never left any of them.

I told every one what had happened and I could see that they were all mad that our family had been torn apart like that Jen wouldn't leave my side so I told the boys that I would sleep with er tonight.

I woke up the next morning to Jen shaking me "Oppa! Get up! It's Sunday! We're making pancakes." For a second I saw my 7 year old sister shaking me telling me that it was time for our special pancakes. I smiled and got up. "Go wake up the others. I'll start making them." She smiled and rushed out of the room as I headed downstairs to see Noona making the normal breakfast. i gave an over dramatic gasp "Noona! How could you? Sunday is for special pancakes" I said pulling he to the lounge. "Now sit here. We'll make breakfast today" She smiled and laughed at my childish behavior.