imagine | dolan twins

tkm | g.d.

(song) your pov :

i wipe my tears with the sleeve of my grey hoodie and bring my knees closer to my chest, tucking my head into my knees.

here i was, sitting down next to the monkey bars of my old elementary school.

it's weird how this is the one place that makes me calm and relaxed; i mean it's school for god's sake.

for some reason it does calm me down though. i mean elementary was a happy place for me until fifth grade.

but until then, i would always sit at the spot i was in now. i didn't have many friends but i didn't mind it.

the monkey bars always made me feel care free and adventurous for some reason.

like i could do anything i wanted to do.

i hear a skateboard coming my way, making me furrow my eyebrows and i get up from my spot, looking around.

suddenly, a bulky chest bumps into me from behind and i fall over onto the familiar concrete ground, rubbing my head and groaning in pain.

"i'm so sorry here, let me help you up."

my eyes adjust to the dark sky and i look down to see a large hand, offering to help me.

i smile softly and put my hand in their's and they immediately bring me up with no struggle.

"jesus christ." i mutter, shocked by this person's strong arms

they chuckle softly and i smile; happy that i made them laugh.

"i'm sorry i did that. i usually come here to skate because this was my old elementary school and it clams me down."

my eyebrows furrow once they say 'old elementary school.'

"i'm sorry, what's your name?" i ask

"grayson. grayson dolan."

my eyes widen and i thank myself that it's night and they can't see my flushed face.

but of course, my phone starts ringing in my hand and the bright light cascades my face and i see grayson's eyes also widen.

"wait..." he murmurs

i cringe mentally and my mind is telling me to run but my feet don't dare to move.

"i went to elementary with you. how are you?" grayson smirks

wow so he doesn't even know my name, that's nice.

the boy i went to elementary, middle, and high school with; doesn't know my name.

the star football player; that's nice.

clearing my throat, i give him a small smile and take a deep breath.

"i'm alright. what about you?"

"good, good... actually not really." his faint smile turns into a gloomy one

i rub the back of my neck and sit back down in my spot, patting a spot next to me; indicating for him to sit down.

"tell me about it."

—

it's been only four years since that moment but i still remember it as if it just happened yesterday.

that day meant a lot to me and grayson, the day we truly got to know each other and become best friends.

and that day was coming up; this friday.

"so, i was thinking... on friday, we could go to my house and watch our favorite movies hm? i'll kick ethan out." grayson smiles and plays with the strings of his backpack

"sure gray. i'll bring your favorite candies. their stacked in my drawer." i chuckle

"you're the best." he comments, kissing the top of my head

my cheeks turn a bright red and i laugh to shrug it off, tapping my fingers on my history book.

"hey gray? can i maybe even sleep-"

i catch his eyes and my smile turns into a frown as i see who he's staring at.

"she's beautiful right?" he asks in awe

"for sure. one of a kind. why don't you ask her out?" i bite my lower lip to stop my tears from flooding out of my eyes

"really? i mean do you think she'll say 'yes?'" he asks

i chuckle under my breath and kick my feet on the shiny floor.

"grayson you're the star quarterback. any girl swoons over you. obviously she's gonna say 'yes.'"

"any girl except for you, hm?" he teases, bumping his shoulder with mine

i chuckle fakely and nod, pushing him toward's the lucky girl's way.

as i see him talking to her, i quickly turn away and catch eyes with ethan and he nods his head towards the doors of the school.

i follow his directions and quickly run out, catching concerned glances from classmates of mine.

once i'm out into the open air, ethan opens his arms out for me and i run into his arms, sobbing and sniffling.

"hey, hey remember to breath." ethan chuckles, trying to lighten the mood

i laugh softly and bring my head up to see his bright smile.

"you gonna tell him anytime soon?" ethan asks

"psh, no." i shake my head and tuck my head back into ethan's chest, as he wraps his arms around me to comfort me

—

here's the day.

friday, the day we became best friends.

my smile is bright as i open the doors of my school and i walk over to my locker, waiting for grayson to meet me.

time passes by and i become worried, shutting my locker and texting him but as i look back up from my phone, he was already here.

talking to her.

"so today? i'll take you out?" grayson asks

she nods shyly and my heart drops.

today?

i thought today was important to both me and him.

apparently it's just me.

i take a deep breath and wipe the small tear that strolls down my cheek, walking out the doors of the school.

"hey, i stayed home. i don't feel good today. have a great day today gray. love you <3"

after sending that small text, i slam my car door shut and take another deep breath, driving off to the comfort of my home.