Finding My Place | Jasper Hale

Learning Lessons

All Kira felt was anger. It consumed her entire being, spreading throughout her body like a wildfire. This man. This man had killed her father, and he had mentioned it as if he were just talking to an old friend confirming plans for later that day. This man had killed her father, and he did not have an ounce of remorse written in his expression.

This made Kira livid. How was it that she was meant to feel all these emotions, sadness, grief, sorrow, and yet, this man standing before her, felt nothing. Before she could realize what she was doing, Kira let her emotion get the best of her. She felt herself lose control of her body, her emotions carrying her across the floor of her house, towards the man she hated.

Her body lunged across the floor, her arms outstretched to make contact with his body. It was only halfway through her lunge, when she was unable to stop herself, did she feel herself regain movement of her body again. Unable to stop herself, she was forced to watch as her body flung itself towards possibly the most dangerous man in Forks.

Kira's arms made contact with Dylan. Only, not in the way she had originally planned when her body had flung itself across the room. Instead of knocking Dylan over with the sheer force and speed of her lunge, Kira was forced to watch as Dylan side stepped her advancing body. He grabbed hold of Kira's arm, his icy cold hands wrapping around them as if he were catching a baseball bat that was passed to him.

Once in his hands, Dylan flung Kira to the side. Using all of his vampire strength, Kira crashed into the wall, partially crashing through the window. If it had not been for Jasper, who had shown up with his immense timing to catch Kira as she dangled through the broken glass.

After giving her one more lasting look, Jasper turned to join his family. All of whom were advancing upon Dylan. A murderous look had appeared in their eyes after he had injured Kira. She had been accepted into their family already, even after having only known them for a short period of time, and he had hurt a member of their clan. For this, the Cullens knew that he would have to pay.

As the Cullens advanced upon Dylan though, his once cocky expression seemed to change in a heartbeat. Within the span of a few seconds, Dylan had gone from a cocky, overconfident nightmare to a scared and frightened person. The Cullens did not seem to care though, as they proceeded forwards, to rip him limb from limb.

Kira could not have this. No matter how angry she was, or how much revenge she wanted from Dylan, she could not have his death on her conscious too. She would never forgive herself, even if he had hurt her in unimaginable ways.

With that last thought, Kira surged forwards. Her mind already made up. "Stop." she spoke calmly. All of the Cullens turned to her with a look of confusion. They did not understand Kira's decision. To them it seemed easy, and as if this is what Kira had wanted this whole time. But it was different to Kira.

She continued walking forwards, until she was standing between Dylan and the Cullen family. "You can't kill him."

If only Kira had known that this act of kindness would do nothing but more harm to her. As she got her last words out, she felt an immense pain surface from her arm. Looking down, she could only see Dylan's pale hand, slowly but surely attempting to remove her limb from the rest of her body.

"You want to feel what it's like to kill a vampire?" Dylan whispered softly in her ear, but of course, all of the Cullens heard him as well. Kira felt her skin tear even further, letting out a long and loud scream as the pain came to it's fullest. It was at this action, it seemed, that all of the Cullens burst into action.

Jasper lunged forwards, tackling Dylan to the ground, as Kira was flung way. Unfortunately for her, she had the bad fortune of once again being flung into a wall. This time though, Kira was not lucky enough to have someone save her from the full impact. She crashed into the wall, hitting her head against the wood planks with a force only a vampire could create. Everything was spinning. The whole room was going in and out of focus, and Kira could not bring herself to focus on any one thing for too long.

She was, however, able to still hear the screaming, although now it wasn't just her. The screams seemed to be a combination of her's and Dylan's, both blending into one, horrible duet. As the time went on, and Kira continued to lay there, on the cold hard ground, a bonfire was slowly being built outside, and soon enough Dylan's body was being burned in her backyard.

Kira couldn't take the pain anymore. It was all becoming too much for her to handle. The stress since she had gotten to Forks had seemed non-stop, and kira wasn't sure if she could take it anymore. Shew asn't sure if she could handle staying in Forks, or even in this world anymore. Maybe, she thought, she shouldn't be struggling to stay awake for Carlisle to check her out anymore. Maybe she could just let all of her stress go. Leave it behind and never come back.

But Kira knew that she couldn't do that. She had to stay. She had to manage. For her mother, her sister, Jasper. She had to think about others. She was no longer the same girl she was three years ago. She had to think about how her actions impacted her friends and family now. She had to care. And Kira knew that it would be worth it. Because, even if she hadn't had to worry about any of this when she was fighting with her family, she had been so lonely then. She hadn't realized how much she had missed having people close to herself, until she had let them back in. Reintroduced them to her life and herself.

And Kira wouldn't go back if she had to. She had made her decisions, and she was satisfied with them. In fact, she was more than satisfied. She was happy. And that was all that mattered. She had made amends with her sister, and she was no longer fighting with her father. Her mother and her were still working on strengthening their relationship, but Kira was satisfied. She had made progress, and had begun to go back to her life before all of the fights and anger.

Kira wouldn't go back because she had met Jasper. Jasper had changed her life. He had played one of the key roles in getting her to open up to her family, and without him, Kira may have never been able to patch up the pieces of her broken relationships. Jasper was the reason she was happy. He had mended her heart, and had allowed her to even open up to the possibility of new relationships, with him and his family, everybody at school, and hopefully more in the future.

Jasper had taught her that she didn't need to be afraid anymore. He had taught her that she could handle herself just fine, and, although she had managed by herself, she was always better when she surrounded herself with supportive people. People who understood her, and were able to help her, no matter the tough times she was going through. It was for those reasons that Kira knew she had to stay alive. She had to thank Jasper for all that he had done, and show him that his efforts hadn't been for nothing. Show him that she could be a better person, when surrounded by the right people. And she knew that she wouldn't always be approached by the right people, but now she wasn't afraid to seek these people out herself.

Kira pushed herself to stay awake. She had to stay awake. Kira forced her eyes back open, looking into Jasper's concerned ones. She couldn't bring herself to move her body, but instead just focused on making the house stop spinning, and listening to what Dr. Cullen had to say.

He seemed to have a worried expression on his face, the rest of the Cullens also mirroring this face. Kira tried to tune into their conversation, putting all of her energy into listening to what Carlisle was trying to say. At first Kira could only catch bits and pieces of what he was saying, but eventually Kira caught a comprehensible line.

Carlisle was speaking to Jasper. "It may be the only option. You might need to turn her. Without my equipment, I don't know the full extend of her injuries."

It was with this sentence that Kira understood what was happening. As Jasper moved over to her side, Kira knew that she had to make this decision quick. Speak up before anything happened that she might regret. But Kira wasn't sure what she wanted. For a second, she let her mind wander tot he possibility of the rest of eternity with Jasper. Them getting married, moving into their own house together, travelling the world. Kira thought about this life, knowing she would be content with the possibility of spending the rest of her never-ending life with the man next to her.

Yet, Kira couldn't bring herself to let it happen. At least, not until she was one hundred percent on board. So she mustered up all of her last bits of strength and energy, and spoke to him.

"No. Jasper, I don't want this."

This caused Jasper to jolt back, but something in his eyes softened. It was as if he didn't want her to be turned either. He wanted to spare Kira from the horrors that he had had to endure in his eternal life.

They shared a smile, both content to be together in this moment.