Finding My Place | Jasper Hale

Missing

Jasper couldn't control himself. He had been able to keep himself in control around Kira, and from the moment he met her, he hadn't felt his thirst at all. He had been so consumed by her, he had been completely ignoring all other emotions and urges that he normally received.

Maybe, Jasper thought, that was why he had been unable to control himself when Kira had cut her finger. He couldn't remember the last time he had fed, and the amazing smell of her blood had sent his urges into overdrive, unable to think about anything else.

Of course, it was only natural that Kira's blood smelt even better to Jasper. He could feel that she was meant to be his mate. Her and only her had consumed his thoughts since she had first come to Forks High School, and he knew that she was the only thing that would ever consume his thoughts for the rest of his never-ending life.

Thankfully though, the thought of hurting Jasper's mate had been slightly stronger in controlling his actions then the thirst side. Jasper had been able to control himself enough to slow his pace down, allowing Kira just enough time to reach the bathroom, and lock herself in before Jasper got there.

Edward had also come to Jasper's rescue. As Jasper felt himself about to knock down the door, his lack of blood the past few days driving him to do things he never would have done, Edward had knocked him to the side. Jasper felt Edward distracting him by fighting him, slowly moving the fight towards the door, until Jasper found himself standing outside, slightly calming down at the lack of blood near him.

He felt Edward lead him into the forest, before forcing him to go out and hunt. Jasper reluctantly looked towards the house once more, before going out and finding the first deer he could. He quickly chased and killed it, making sure he was full before running back towards where Edward was standing, outside of the house.

Edward looked Jasper over, checking to make sure that he would not attack Kira again, before sighing and gesturing for Jasper to follow him inside.

"We need to get you cleaned up if we want to talk this through with Kira." Edward said with another sigh.

Jasper nodded, and followed Edward into the kitchen, where he proceeded to clean himself up and wash the blood off of his face. Then, he went to his room and changed into a fresh shirt.

As Jasper waited downstairs for Carlisle to bring Kira down to explain what had just happened, Jasper felt himself tune into their conversation through the bathroom door.

"I'm not coming out!" Jasper heard Kira shout.

"Please, Kira, let us explain what just happened." Carlisle tried to reason.

"No! I'm not coming out! I'm not going to stay here with some monster who tried to kill me!"

Jasper felt his heart sink. His mood instantly darkening. The rest of his family, sensing his mood change, instantly shot him sympathetic looks. But Jasper didn't want their sympathy. His mate. His one and only mate. Thought he was a monster.

He knew he would have to explain to Kira what he was eventually, or that he might slip up once or twice, but he didn't expect it to happen this quickly. Kira was just starting to trust him, and now he had blown it. There was no way he could regain her trust again, and he was scared that he had lost her forever.

"Kira? Kira? Please speak to me." Jasper tuned back into Carlisle and Kira's conversation to hear Carlisle trying to call back out to her.

When Kira didn't respond, Jasper began to get worried, causing everybody in the room to get worried as well. Jasper quickly rushed up the stairs, trying to smell Kira's delicious scent through the door, but her scent was not as strong as it normally was.

Jasper, thinking that something had happened to her, busted down the door with one strong hit. He heard Carlisle try to tell him to leave the door alone, but Jasper couldn't. His overwhelming urge to protect Kira and ensure her safety was greater than his common sense.

As the bathroom door fell to the ground, Jasper felt his eyes widen. Nobody was inside the room. The open window the only indication of where Kira could have gone. Jasper raced over to the window, but he was on the second floor of the house. Kira would have had to jump out of the window, and there was almost no way that she would have been able to make it without hurting anything.

Even with Jasper's elevated sense of sight, he could not see Kira. She had managed to get out of the window, make her way down from a second story window, and get very far away from the house, without anybody realizing until now.

Jasper felt anxious. His mate could be anywhere, and she had most likely run into the forest. Her leg was still broken and in a cast, and she did not know the forest well. Although Jasper was worried for her safety, he was also angry. Angry at himself that he had lost control, and angry that he had scared Kira away.

He felt a hand on his shoulder, and turned to see Carlisle, but before he could say anything, Jasper jumped through the window.

He spent the remainder of that night, searching all of Forks to try to find Kira, but ended up coming home that night empty-handed.

Throughout the rest of that week, Jasper did not see Kira at all. He had gone over to her house, but both Charlie and Bella Swan had said that they had not seen Kira since she had gone over to the Cullen's house. Kira had not shown up to school either, and Jasper could not smell her or sense her nearby. Even Edward could not find her in any of the minds of the people at Forks High School.

Kira had simply vanished from Forks, and his lack of knowledge of her whereabouts was causing him to go insane. He couldn't bring himself to attend school anymore, except for the classes that he and Kira shared, hoping that maybe he would see her there, and that she was coming back.

Jasper had even brought himself to ask Kira's friends that he saw her sitting with on her first day, which he knew as Jessica, Angela, Mike, and Eric. They had seemed very excited that he was speaking to them, but they had unfortunately not seen or heard anything from Kira for a long time.

After all of this, Jasper only had one hope left, and he cursed himself for not thinking of it earlier. Jasper had seen Kira interacting with a girl name Lyssa in their grade. They had the same third period, and when they got to class, Jasper asked her if she had heard anything from Kira.

Lyssa had looked hesitant when he had asked her this. She seemed to be nervous, glancing around and whipping her suddenly sweaty palms on her jeans. She looked back up at Jasper, before quickly shaking her head and turning back to the teacher.

Jasper could tell that she was nervous, and was not telling him the full truth. Later that day, at lunch Jasper spoke with Edward. He needed Edward to read Lyssa's mind in order to find out where Kira was, and he would not rest until he found out.