My left arm is still tied to the chair and my right arm is fractured. I can only watch powerlessly Monika bringing with shaking hands my letter to her face.
The letter is folded. Before she opens it, she says in a trembling voice:
Monika: "It really was true…"
Tears are falling. Tears of sadness, tears of anger, tears of betrayal.
I don't know what to say. No excuse or lie would solve this impossible situation. I don't even know whether I want to lie anyway. A growing part of me just wants to give up.
Monika was sitting on my lap until now. She gets off and walks a step away.
Monika: "I didn't want to believe it...even a moment ago."
Monika is squeezing tightly the letter.
Finally, I say something.
Ethan: "Monika...I...I'm sorry…"
My words only upset further Monika.
Monika: "Why did you hide it from me?! Why!"
I can't say it, because I'm not even sure myself. Couldn't I have trusted Monika? Told her the truth since the beginning? Even if I stay in this world, would it really be that bad?
Ethan: "Sorry…"
Monika: "..."
She begins to unfold the letter.
I didn't know. Staying in this world with my love and losing everything else...Or going back to my home and losing her...I couldn't decide...Now...This is different. Thanks to Natsuki's letter, I know that going back to my world means the death of this world...
Monika: "I guess there's only way to find out…"
Yet, I still...can't decide...There must be a solution to save everyone...Otherwise, it wouldn't be interesting for them...There must be! That's why...I have to keep lying.
Monika inhales deeply and slowly begins the letter. I look at her carefully.
As her eyes read the first lines, her expression is focused and serious…But as soon as she sees the next lines...Her expression becomes complex. A mix of relief...joy, resent and finally…
Doubts. She quickly finishes the rest of the letter.
She asks with a rather hopeful tone:
Monika: "Is it true..?"
She's surely talking about the way for me to go back to my world...Should I try to deny it…?
Ethan: "..."
I...
Monika: "If it wasn't, you wouldn't have tried to hide it…"
I will lie again. I don't know what to do...That's why I have to keep buying time.
Ethan: "It is true...But…"
Ethan: "The thing I told you...about me dying if anyone else dies...was also true."
She has no way to know whether I'm telling the truth...That way, she shouldn't delete or kill anyone prematurely…
Unexpectedly, anger flashes in her eyes and her hands are closed into fists.
Monika: "No...That was a lie...wasn't it?"
How can she be sure..? No, it's obvious. Either the letter or my lie must be fake...even so…
Ethan: "It wasn't. That's what they told me last night...I know it seems paradoxical...Me dying if anyone else dies and me being unable to go back if the same thing happens…"
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