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I'm calling Jeno two hours after being home.

"What took you long?" he asks in amusement. I curl up on my mattress, smiling weakly at his voice.

"Anxiety."

"About what?"

"Life, it seems. Just everything, really."

"That's bad."

"It is. Tell me something so I don't go back to being anxious about everything. I had to think about calling you for like ten minutes."

"I told you you could call me anytime," he says, concerned.

"Anxious Jaemin doesn't believe you," I sigh. "I can't do anything about it."

"Anxious Jaemin better shuts up or I'll have to do it myself," he grumbles.

I laugh weakly. "Does that include you coming over?"

"Definitely."

My thoughts drift away from his following words.

"Nana?"

"What? I'm sorry."

"Are you okay?"

"Not really."

"Is the anxiety still there or just its effect on you?"

"I can't tell," I mumble, "both?"

"I can come over if you want me to, princess."

"I don't know. I don't know anything right now. But I know that my parents would be surprised to see you this soon again."

"What if I tell them I feel lonely being home alone?"

"Could help, could not help. I don't want you to do that for me though."

"Do you think it's not necessary or is it about the effort for me?"

"The effort."

"Nana, my princess, I'd fly across the world to make you happy."

"You're not supposed to make me cry," I say, my voice already trembling.

"I'm sorry. But no matter how high the effort is, I'll come to you without hesitation."

"I swear to God," I suppress a sob, "I really hate you sometimes."

"Don't cry, princess," he says lovingly, "I'm here." I wish.

"I know." A sob escapes my lips.

"Do I really have to come over and hug you to death?" I laugh weakly, followed by sobbing.

"Yes, please."

"Just be honest, Nana," he says quietly, "do you want me to be with you?"

"I'm not sure. I... I think it's still bearable."

"Tell me if it gets too much, alright? I'll be as fast as lightning."

A short laugh leaves my lips. "That's impossible."

"Not for me when my boyfriend needs me."

"You're an idiot," I smile.

"Seems like I'm good at it," he replies softly, "since you're distracted."

I'm feeling better after talking to him for a while though hanging up decreases it a bit again.

A message pops up just a few seconds after I did. If you're down again, just tell me please, I want to be there for you :( and hopefully make you feel better! Also tell me if you want me to come over