I'm a terrible person. Here's why

I Hate Myself

I hate myself. Because every time I open my mouth someone's feelings get hurt. I don't do it on purpose though. And that's what makes it worse. My intention is never to make anyone feel bad. Most of the time I'm just joking, I'm not serious. But these people always get offended. Since I'm autistic, I can't really read people, especially on the internet. When I do something bad, I don't even realise it. And no one wants to explain to me, what I did wrong. Because I should know. And when someone finally decides to tell me, that I was an asshole, my genuine feeling of shame and guilt is not enough for the person to forgive me. Because I shouldn't have said it in the first place. I don't understand certain things, and people aren't willing to help me understand. They don't realise, what being autistic feels like. When I can't tell if someone was joking or not, I ask. But those people get offended right away and they don't explain to me that I said something wrong. Maybe I should put a warning as my profile picture everywhere, saying "I'm autistic. Please don't get mad at me."