dear harry [h.s]

day 31

Dear Harry,

      Last night was Christmas Eve. They held the gathering at Niall's home. The boys got shitfaced, and it was the funniest thing to watch them all interact with each other. I even had a few drinks myself, but not a lot, don't worry! The Christmas tree looked beautiful. You would have absolutely loved it. The boys even got me a present. It was wrapped in a silver paper, tied with a red bow. The wrapping itself was so amazing that I didn't want to tear into it, but Lou wanted me to open it so bad. When I did, the joy left my heart.

I pulled out a frame, and in that frame was you and I. I was on your back; you had your thumbs up and a goofy grin on your face. There was a message carved at the bottom, a personal message from your friends: "Forever & Always". I couldn't take it; something came over me and I could not look at it any longer. I threw the frame against the wall and ran out of the house. Niall followed me out. He tried to make me stay, but like you, I pushed him away. That's what I'm good at. I guess the holidays just aren't my thing.