adopted by tony lopez and addison rae ❤

"invisible"

Its been 10 months now dont get me wrong tge first 9 months were great then the baby came .
Yep samuel lopez mom ended up having a boy .
It was great at first then now i cant do thing everyones been busy with the baby .no one listen to me .
Not even uncle dre hes either busy with grace or hes out .
Same with mom and dad .
There looking after sammy most or working they never have any time for me . So i gave up i havent come out of my room since sammy was born .
And to make it worst today is my birthday .
No one remembered.
It was a sunday so that means everyone is playing with samuel or something that doesnt envole me .
Also my anxiety and depression have come back and its much worse .
I always go back to the videos of me my mom and dad . Just us .
I just cry silently in my room .
I have barly eaten and i have been cutting again .
No one care .i see comments on my dads tiktoks of him and sammy but the comments saying .
Sammys replaced bella .
@bella_lopez where u gone .
I dont care . I dont care about my life anymore i just wanna be invisble i already am . I wish i can go back to the days where it was just us.
I was lost in my thoughts when there was a knock on my door .
I didnt answer.
??:bella are u there
I still didnt answer
??:bella someones come to meet u
I stayed quiet and just cried .
??:are u okay .
I just cried and sobs and didnt answer the door .
??:bella answer me
??:Bella open the door or ill get ur mom and dad up here .
I finally answered
Me:u can go get them they wont care they have been neglecting me since samuel was born they wont care anyways .noone does .to make matters worst no one even remembered a special occasion today .so go u can call them .
??:bella thats not true i care
Me:if u cared maybe u would've asked if i was okay or would've come to my room but not u didnt so dont tell me u care .
??:bell im-
Me:save it idc there lives are better without me . I love u auntie char char .tell everyone that even though they might not  love me .