My Selfish Wish

"JUST LEAVE ME ALONE BLAKE!"

I slam the door to his face. My breathing has grown rapid from shouting.

"Kira, please, open the door." Blake keeps knocking the door but I ignore it. He continuously talk on the other side as I cover my ears.

Keep that up and he'll leave you.

I flinch. My body trembles in fright. This is why I tell him that he'd regret going out with me. I am too messed up.

Just like them.

"Kira..." He sighs and a soft thump could be heard. Then, sound of footsteps end in silence. Tears stream down my face.

It hurts. This always happens. We always fight.

I slump back the door. Nothing is ever right.

Why? Somebody... please, tell me why? I'm tired of dealing myself.

You're toxic.

The demon in my head taunt. My hands fist on my hair in frustration and I silently scream.

I keep on trembling as my chest starts to feel tight as if something is blocking my chest.

Keep calm. You can do this. Just relax.

I take deep breaths while my tears continue to trickle. I start to feel light-headed.

I'll be fine.

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Few days later...

I pack up and decide to get away for now. Somewhere far and nice can help me clear my head. When I return, I'll apologize and, if he can't forgive me, I'll have to accept it since it's my fault.

Rain starts pouring so I take my umbrella out. On the way, an elderly drenched at the sidewalk is selling merchandise. I hesitate.

The bus stop has its shelter and I can always buy a new one.

I looked at her soak thin clothes. That won't protect her from the cold. Suddenly, I find myself in front of her.

"Ma'am, you can use this."

She looks at me with dark doe eyes. "What about you, dear?"

"The station is few walks away. There's shelter." I insist, handing my umbrella.

Her shaky hand reaches out, "Thank you." I smile feeling relief. I'm no saint but it feels nice to be able to help, even if it leaves you being unable to help yourself at times.

Remembering the fight made me turn sour.

"Do not worry dear." She picks up one of her merchandise, "Each choices will lead you to your happy ending eventually. Here, a gift." I look at her hand and see a bracelet.

The bracelet has simple round beads made of amethyst. They feel nostalgic but I couldn't pinpoint why. A familiarity washes over at the touch.

I put on the bracelet then thank the lady.

The lady smiles knowingly before vanishing in the mist of rain.

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Stupid stairs. Why did the hotel elevator stop working?

I drag my luggage up when a man dashes down making him bump me. My bracelet tangles on his shirt and snaps.

Oh no.

I slip. The man in shock tries to grab me but is unable to as I fall at the bottom.