[Crowley Eusford x Reader] Can Love be Forgotten?

Chapter 3: Gone

"...I fainted didn't I?" I say while searching for clouds that resemble animals. The generous sunlight tickles my bare skin. This grass I'm laying on feels like a soft cushion. I wish I could buy one just like it. "Oh look! That one looks like cotton candy," I giggle.

"All of them look like cotton candy, (Y/N)" a nearby voice adds on.

"Yeah, but that one particularly does," I laugh.

"You don't seem so bothered that you're here," She says while taking a seat next to me.

"Yeah, I love it here. It's so peaceful. I'm tired of being... out there. I'm jealous of you, Peregurin," I say as I continue to feel the soft breeze that cradles my face.

"That's ill-considered of you to say. I'm stuck here. You get to live a life," She says, followed with a shallow sigh.

"You literally just saw how I almost got drained empty by a vampire," I rant.

"Sure, but you're alive," She says, hugging her knees.

She's right. The difference between me and her is that I'm living life and that she's stuck inside of me as my demon who feeds off my desires. She's a sweetheart, though. Although we had a rough start because she didn't think I had enough "desire" to feed off of, we've bonded quite a lot now. She's realized that my desire is to live and to stay alive, and I think she sympathized with that. That's what she wants too, a real life.

I don't know where she came from and neither does she, but she despises humans and she'll never tell me why. But I can guess why. Humans somehow created the technology or maybe used even witchcraft, I'll never know, to lock up demons inside of people. I am perhaps one of the first few human experiments for it. It was part of the contract for joining JIDA when I was 12. Naive and desperate me, of course, signed on it without hesitation.

"You actually seemed to enjoy the blood-sucking," Peregurin teases, giving me a little shove.

"You have to be kidding me. Do not bring that up ever again. It was literally traumatizing," I hiss.

"(Y/N), you know I can feel and see the same things you do. Don't lie," She sneers. "I definitely didn't think you'd have a thing for vampires though!" She bursts into laughter while slapping me on the back.

"Shut up! You're only trying to tease me. You know I just never- have any.. experience with... whatever." I blush.

But now that she mentions it... maybe he wasn't so terrible.

I bury my face into my knees. Was I really feeling some type of way for him? What am I thinking? We're too different. I'm not thinking clearly. I lost too much blood, that must be why. But... I do kind of want to see him once more, despite being a situation where we have to kill each other.

"Oh look, it's time for you to go. See ya!" She waves.

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I open my eyes and see teary-eyed Rika and Yayoi looking down at me. They must have shaken me awake.

"(Y/N)! Are you okay? What happened?" Rika pulls me off the ground to give me a tight hug. "I'm sorry we're late. We had problems with Horn and Chess. Where did the other noble go? Did you kill him?"

"Yes, yes, I'm fine and no. I was not able to but he spared me. Anyways, how is everyone else? Lt. Col Guren and Shinoa's squad?" I pull away from the hug to wipe Rika's unstoppable tears. Everyone stays silent, reluctant to answer my question. She must be crying for another reason.