Alone

Chapter 2

"I'm okay today." I said looking down at my fingers. I knew if I opened up and told him anything I would get in a lot of trouble at home. "Are you sure? How are your classes going?" He asked sitting up on his chair. "Well my classes suck. Those kids always mess with me." I confessed. "Well have you ever thought about standing up for yourself? Sometimes that can help a lot." He was right I haven't ever tried standing up for my self. "No, what's your name?" I asked. "It's Mr.Banks or Ronnie." Me and Mr.Banks talked more we got to know each other so I would feel more comfortable talking to him.

I was in his office for two whole periods.

Now it's time to get out of school. I take the bus home and usually sit in the front close to the bus driver. She's really nice and she make conversation with me.

We pulled to my stop and I waved goodbye and got of the bus. I walked down the block towards my house. When I got there nobody was home I went upstairs to my room and locked the door. I changed in to my yoga pants and a hoodie. I grabbed my laptop and sat on my bed. I opened up my laptop and noticed I had a new email. When I clicked on it, it was from Mr.Banks.

Hey Yn,
I'm glad you decided to start consoling with me. I look forward to our meetings. We have a long road ahead of us but I want you to know that anything you say will always be safe with me. Nothing will ever leave this room. Your next meeting is Wednesday at the same time.
See you soon,
Mr.Banks

I smiled a little bit and closed out of my emails, and started doing my homework.

Charles just got home from work I heard him come in the house he walked upstairs and knocked on my door I didn't answer, I wanted him to think I was sleep. I heard him twist the handle trying to get in. "Why is this damn door locked?" He yelled and started banging on my door. "Yn get your ass up and open this damn door!" I got up because I knew he wouldn't stop. I walked over to my door and slowly opened it. "Don't lock doors in my house." He said aggressively pushing my door opened. "Fine, whatever." I said walking back to my bed.

Nothing happened that night when my mom got off work she was pretty cool. She didn't say much to me though.

|WEDNESDAY|

Today was going by pretty fast. I'm in my 5th period lunch right now. I went to get in line for lunch. I just got me a sandwich and some pears. I don't like eating in the cafeteria because nobody want me sitting with them. It sucks not to be accepted where ever you go. I sit in the office or in the bathroom eating my lunch but most of the time I was in the office it's really nasty to eat in the bathroom.

After lunch I have my meeting with Mr.Banks.

|MR.BANKS OFFICE|

"Hey." I said walking in the office putting my bag down. "Hey Yn. Nice shirt" he said Turning around from the window. He sat down at his desk and pulled my folder out of his drawer and wrote the date. "Thanks." I said in a low voice. "So what do you want to talk about today? What's going on?" He asked tapping his pen on the folder. "Umm I don't really know." I said. "Well how does your parents feel about you coming to meetings with me?" He asked. "My mom! I don't know my dad. And she doesn't know about this I don't want her to know." I said looking up at him. "Why not Yn?" He asked. "Because she would be really mad at me." I said not wanting to say anymore. "Well whatever you say is safe with me." He said then smiled a little. I still don't feel so comfortable opening up to him about my mom and stepdad, but I know it needs to happen soon. "Yeah." I said looking back down at my fingers. "So have you said anything back to those students that bother you?" He asked. "No.. Not yet." I said. "Well what do they say about you?"
"Well they say my eyes look creepy and I'm a weirdo, and my legs are to long." I told him. "Your eyes are beautiful they don't look creepy at all. I like them." I smiled a little. "Thanks." I said looking up at him and he was smiling too. "You are beautiful I don't see anything wrong with you. Maybe they're just jealous." He said. "Maybe." Maybe he was right some people tell me my eyes are really nice but then here at school they talk about me. Mr.Banks is really cute and he keeps making me blush a guy has never done that before.

|LATER|

We where all sitting in the living room watching tv. My mom said she had something to tell me, whatever that is. Charles didn't say anything he just sat there eating and watching tv. I hate him so much y'all wouldn't know. My mom took a sip of her water and I sat there waiting for her to talk. She looked at me and said "I'm pregnant." I can't believe this shit. "What? Why would you do that? As much as yall put me through yall actually want another kid? I can't believe this. You are ignorant. Both of yall!" I got up and walked away. "I knew she would react like this. Charles we can't keep doing this." I heard my mom say. I stopped walking and stood in the hallway to listen to what he had to say. "No! I'm gonna keep fucking her because you won't give me none. Besides she way better then you!" He said "Charles I fucking hate you! None of this would have ever happened to her if I would have never married you!" She yelled back at him. Charles stoop up a slapped her and she fell back on the couch. I walked back in the living room and seen my mom holding the side of her face. Charles looked at me and walked out the room. I looked back at my mom and didn't say nothing. I walked upstairs to my room and layed down in my bed. I didn't know what to think or what to do. I just wish I had someone I could talk to about this.

MR.BANKS!

I sat up in my bed and grabbed my laptop. I signed into my emails and started writing to Mr. Banks.

Hey Mr. Banks,
I really need somebody to talk to right now. Please reply.

Yes Yn? What's wrong?

My moms pregnant :(

Why the sad face you should be happy.

No I shouldn't! Why would she do this?

What's going on Yn? It's okay just tell me.

.. Her husband is abusive he hits her and yell at her and..

And what? Are you okay?

No I'm not okay! He rapes me and it's been going on since I was 8 but he never had sex with me until I was 11.

Wow are you serious.

Why would I lie?

Do you want me to call the police?

No don't do that please can I have a meeting tomorrow?

Sure. See you tomorrow.

Thanks Mr. Banks

I didn't expect to open up to him like this. But I felt like he really cared about his clients and I don't know how much longer I can hold these things in.

The next day at school I stood up to this girl in my class and she stopped talking. If I knew that's all I had to do I would have been did it. At my meeting with Mr. Banks I opened up and told him everything it felt good to finally tell somebody who didn't judge me.

|8 MONTHS LATER|

My mom is 8 months pregnant now but Charles is still treating me and her really bad. She stopped hitting me so much. I still have my meetings with Mr.Banks even though it's summer. I go to his house and he lets me vent to him. Charles had sex with me last night and I hurted really bad because it's been a while. He told me my mom wasn't giving him any and he need some. All I did was cry he even slapped me a few times. I started making friends finally after 2 years of being here.

My mom came upstairs to my room "Yn we need to talk." She said. Aww man not again. "Yeah?" I said not looking at her. "We're moving to New York" I turned and looked at her. "Why? I just started making friends here." " I know but Charles. He doesn't want anybody to find out about us." She said sitting down on my bed."what do you mean find out about us?" I asked. "Nothing just don't worry about. Start packing were leaving Monday." She said standing up walking towards my door.