At home Minho puts me on the couch so we can watch some tv. I sit staring at the screen showing various colorful pictures. Minho sits next to me with his arm on my shoulder. I turn to see him and he smiles. The phone rings and Minho gets up to answer it.
"Minnie we have to go somewhere really quickly. I have to pick up something." I nod as Minho comes and picks me up placing me on the wheelchair.
I hate the wheelchair.
I hate not moving.
I hate the fact that I'm dragging Minho's life back by him taking care of me.
I hate this.
I hate everything.
"You alright Minnie?!" Minho asks cupping my face in his hands.
I nod.
He kisses ny forehead and smiles.
We had to go to his friends house to pick up a book.
I stayed in the car.
My excuse was that I didn't feel good.
I sat in the car trying to move my legs.
There's no way I'll ever get better. This is stupid. The rehab classes are stupid.
I hate this.
Minho came back in the car and started the car again.
"...I feel like I'm burdening you hyung..." I say quietly to him.
"What? Why do you say that Minnie?" Minho says pulling off to the side of the road.
"You can't even hang out with your friends, date, have fun, be a normal adult. Instead you have to take care of me! I'm not that important so why stay with me?! I hate this!" A tear falls down and I clench my fist.
"Hey! Don't you ever say you're not important! Friends, dating, that isn't important. I have fun when I'm with you. I love taking care of someone who I love. You've been with me all my life. That makes me feel normal. When you stay at home and I'm at school all I can do is think of you. You're the most important person in my life." Minho says holding my hand.
"I love you so much Minnie. Why can't you see that?" Minho finishes and hugs me tightly.
"I do hyung, but your love and my love are different. You see me as a brother, a friend. I love more than that... I can't see your love if I don't feel it. I-"
Minho places his lips on mine.
The kiss is slow and soft. It's my first kiss.
My love is kissing me.
Minho keeps his eyes closed and I shut mine as well melting into the warm kiss.
"I've loved you more than a friend or brother since I met you Minnie."
Minho says breaking the kiss.
I'm motionless in his arms.
He pecks my lips again and begins to drive.
We reach home and it's already late so we go straight to bed and sleep.
Minho has school in the morning so before he goes he makes it easier for me to get on my wheelchair.
I wake up at around 9 am and get on my chair heading for the kitchen for some breakfast.
I scoop up some of the miso Minho made for me with some noodles and get some freen tea.
As I eat the phone rings, but I'm too tired to answer it letting the machine answer.
'Hello this is Doctor Lee, uh Minho about Taemin.. well the tests came back and they're not good. He's- he's dying Minho. He won't live for more than 3 days maybe even less. Come quickly and we can talk more.'
