"Your the best." I shreik grabbing one and shoving it into my mouth.
"Oh your fine. No need to kiss me, or hug me first. Its okay!" He playfully yells at me, hitting my forehead with the palm of his hand and walking past me, further into my room. I ignore the first part of what he said and try to stiffle a laugh without choking.
After I swallow I take the flower from his hand and place it in an empty vase on my dresser. Nobody ever gives me flowers, so I have no idea why that was in here. I sit next to him on my bed, and he looks at me with, those eyes. Those eyes that make you knowthat he wants to kiss you. Without knowing I shove the other half of strawberry into my mouth.
He jerks back and immediately looks to the ground, and it breaks my heart. He pinches his eyes shut and says "You know, if you didn't want to kiss me, it would have felt a whole lot better if you just told me."
I quickly chew and swallow. "I-its.. Not that I dont want to kiss you." I stutter, lightly shaking my head.
"Then what is it?" He asks, slowly looking up at me.
"I..." I don't want to admit that I'm scared. I don't want to tell him exactly how I feel. I don't want to tell him that I'm afraid of losing him, that even though we haven't been together that long, he's been the only thing I could think of the entire time. That his eyes, and the way he's looking at me right now are melting me. That I want to kiss him more than anything in the entire world but I can't because "I'M SCARED!"
I gasp and my eyes bug out of my head as soon as I realized what I did. "I-im sorry. I didn't mean to-"
"It's okay." He mummbles. Looking away from my eyes.
"Please don't look away." I beg. He looks back at me with a confused look on his face. "I'm freaking out and I need you to calm me down." I gasp a deep breath of air. All of the sudden I feel light headed and my hands start to shake. Panicattack.
"Okay." He starts to panic. "What do you want me to do?"
"J-just look at me. Hold my hand." I breath, grabbing his hand and stare into his eyes. The second he looks at me and begins to rub circles on my thumb, I calm down and my breathing starts ti return to normal.
"You have anxiety?" He asks tilting his head, scared to take his eyes away from mine. I slowly nod my head.This is the part of me i never wanted anyone to see, but theres no stopping it now. He pulls his hand away from mine and slowly brings it up to my face, placing it on my cheek, and my body freezes. He seems to notice and moves his hands back to mine. Relization flashes through his eyes and he sighs.
"Amber. I'm not going to hurt you. Ever." He shakes his head and sighs again. "Tell me what that dream was about."
"Um-" What? No.
"Baby, please. No details. Just tell me." His words send a tingling sensation up my spine and i cant help the short sentence that spills out of my mouth.
"You cheated on me." His eyes flick up to me, and look at me like I just told him I secretly have two heads.
"You know I would never in a million years do that, right?"
No. "Yeah."
"I love you. I love you so much." His voice shakes. "You know what, I was going to wait to give this to you, but right now is a pretty good time." He says reaching into his pocket and pulling out a small blue box. Oh my god why is he getting on one knee? We've been together for three weeks!
"Luke I.." I stutter and shoot up off of the bed. He looks at me with confusion and shoots up next to me.
"Amber! I'm not proposing!" He laughs and opens the box. "I dropped my phone on the floor! Its a promise ring." He laughs.
"Oh thank god." I sigh, letting out small giggles. He sits back down on the bed and I follow him.
"This is proof that you don't have to be worried about anything. I love you. More than anyone, and anything in the world. I know your too young to even consider marriage. But I'm not, so this is our compromise." He giggles and slips the ring onto my finger. "Just you. Only you. Forever. Your the one."
