You're my Wonderwall

Part 12

***Smut warning

Part 12

+Michael's P.O.V

I don't think I've ever been so angry in all my life...how could I take back knowing what Vada told me? It's killing me knowing the truth. I never thought in my worst nightmares that her secret was she was brutally attacked, humiliated, beaten, raped and the cherry on top having her attacker carve an X on top of her Area...so she would never forget it...He must be sick in the head.

My poor Vada...I think I'm even angry at myself for not protecting her..even though I never knew her then..It still enrages me knowing no one was there to protect her...she was there all by herself scared out of her mind. How could he look and her innocent face and hit her, how could he know she was a virgin and steal it like he did...all these unanswered questions are going to drive me fucking crazy.

I sat with Ashton at the back of some divvy bar, Google maps directed us too. We sat opposite each other. I was still crying, I didn't know I could cry this much 2 hours and I still haven't stopped. I had my hood on trying to cover my face and sunglasses as well, Even though there was only 4 other people in the bar I still didn't want them to see me in this state. I was half way through a bottle of Jack Daniels drinking it straight it was starting to numb me and that's what I needed. Ashton sipped his coke because he was the driver and absentmindedly drummed his fingers against the wooden booth we sat at.

He didn't speak much...I honestly think he didn't know what to say? And what do you say to a guy who's just found out the love of his life was brutally rapped? But he did listen to me, and that's what I loved about Ash he was a really good listener.

"What do I even say to her?" I asked filling my cup with straight Jack Daniel's and sculling it

"Well...its a very deep subject Mikey I thing you need to talk to her when your sober and all she probably wants to hear you say is that you'll be there for her and you love her" Ash said

He was right

"I don't think I can see her face right now...I'm not angry at her it's not her fault but.." I groaned not knowing how to finish the sentence off

I wiped the fallen tears on my sleeve

"You just can't see her face without thinking about what happened to her" Ashton finished

"Yeah..exactly" I nodded sniffling back tears

"Sorry for the tears bro..I don't think I've ever cried so much...like this in my life" I added

"Michael I'm one of your best friends don't you dare apologise to me...you have a fucking damn good reason to be emotional" Ashton stated

"I'm going to kill him Ash I swear to god...I'll kill him" I said meaning every word

"I'll be right there when you do" He agreed

"I'm not a violent person...but Vada's family no one messes with our family and gets away with it" He added his jaw clenched with anger

"As soon and we touch down in Sydney...I'm going to find him and..." I couldn't finish the sobbing part of crying started to come back

Ashton filled my glass up again

"Drink this Mikey" He said

He didn't have to tell me twice, I sculled the whiskey instantly...the alcohol burned my throat. I had to gulp back the urge to vomit.

"Are you going to be ok to preform tomorrow night?" Ashton asked

"As they say...The show must go on" I sulked