⚜Poor shoto poor poor shoto lmao.
⚜ ALSO big time mentions of self harm.
⚜This is shorter then I originally thought but the next chapter will be longer lol sorry.
( 𝙨𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙤𝙪𝙨𝙡𝙮 𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝 𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙜𝙜𝙚𝙧 𝙬𝙖𝙧𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜 ⚠⚠)
(𝙄𝙩 𝙜𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙤 𝙙𝙚𝙩𝙖𝙞𝙡 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙙𝙞𝙛𝙛𝙚𝙧𝙚𝙣𝙩 𝙩𝙮𝙥𝙚𝙨 𝙤𝙛 𝙎𝙃 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙄 𝙙𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙖𝙣𝙮𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙚 𝙜𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙞𝙙𝙚𝙖𝙨 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙙𝙤𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢)
𝙎𝙤 𝙞𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙮 𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝𝙩𝙨 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙥𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙚 𝙙𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 🥺🥺🥺
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Izuku:
Self harming.
It's something a lot of teenagers these days do.
Sometimes it's a small thing you do.
Biting your lips when your anxious.
Pinching your arms or legs every once in awhile trying to calm yourself down.
Taking a lighter to your skin out of curiosity to see if it'll hurt or not.
It doesn't at first, in fact it's just fire against skin no pain whatsoever.
But then you leave it there for a little while and eventually the pain become unbearable.
One of the most common known thing for self harm, that everyone on this planet knows about is cutting.
And that was exactly what my habit was.
When some people first find out that you cut or self harm in any way there first reaction is to ask if your ok?
I know stupid question right?
And sometimes you just want to smack the living crap out of them for asking such a stupid question but you restrain yourself from doing so.
There's a lot of feelings that goes around when 'self harmers' get caught.
You get told that your ruining your body, and that people aren't gonna be able to look at you the same if anyone else finds out.
And in some ways that can be true.
You often wonder if they're only talking to you now out of pity.
Another feeling that comes around is when a close friend or family finds out.
You often feel ashame,weak, even pathetic.
You scold yourself knowing you could of done better at hiding them.
And then when they start asking why and thinking that they must of been at fault.
They make it about them, with out even trying.
Just like Kacchan was doing.
I know he believes he was at fault, and I can't completely say he wasn't.
He might of had a small part in it but it was mainly that damn voice.
The voice that never leave me alone, and then there's those thoughts.
The same ones that seem to be sinking slowly into my mind.
Calling me pathetic.
And a failure for allowing Kacchan, my childhood friend/bully to find out.
"Deku?"
Kacchan called out interrupting my thoughts.
I quickly looked up at him, him and his gorgeous eyes.
They looked so worried.... or was it pity I was seeing?
I-I can't tell him.
I need to keep it to myself.
ℌ𝔢 𝔡𝔬𝔢𝔰𝔫'𝔱 𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔩𝔩𝔶 𝔴𝔞𝔫𝔫𝔞 𝔨𝔫𝔬𝔴, 𝔫𝔬 𝔬𝔫𝔢 𝔡𝔬𝔢𝔰!
𝔗𝔥𝔢𝔶 𝔡𝔬𝔫'𝔱 𝔠𝔞𝔯𝔢.
𝔖𝔥𝔲𝔱 𝔥𝔦𝔪 𝔬𝔲𝔱.
ℑ𝔤𝔫𝔬𝔯𝔢 𝔥𝔦𝔪.
𝔏𝔢𝔞𝔳𝔢.
𝔜𝔬𝔲 𝔫𝔢𝔢𝔡 𝔱𝔬 𝔩𝔢𝔞𝔳𝔢 𝔫𝔬𝔴!
"Izuku please tell me. "
Kacchan begged, taking one of my hands into his.
"K-Kacchan I wanna leave. "
This was a bad idea.
Why am I here?
Oh right.
Cause I believed he was gonna confess to me.
Why do I keep doing this to myself.
𝔅𝔢𝔠𝔞𝔲𝔰𝔢 𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔯 𝔞𝔫 𝔦𝔡𝔦𝔬𝔱.
𝔄 𝔥𝔬𝔭𝔢𝔩𝔢𝔰𝔰 𝔬𝔫𝔢 𝔞𝔱 𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔱.
"I'm not letting you go anywhere, till you answer my question. "
Kacchan declared, pulling me closer towards him.
"Kacchan-"
"Nope."
"But I-"
"Nope."
"Arrr-"
"The only time I'm letting you speak is when your answering my question. "
"Fine! "
"You wanna know why?? "
"Because I'm useless! "
"I can't do anything right."
" All I do cause trouble for others.".
"I'm just useless and good for nothing".
"Most the time I feel like I should get buried in the nearest garbage can and left there to rot."
All my tears were coming down and they weren't gonna stop any time soon.
"𝘐'𝘮 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘢 𝘥𝘦𝘬𝘶."
I mumbled under my breath
