Damage is Done

2.

"Good Morning, Students" Mrs. Stinson smiled at the class, as if we didn't just see each other last Friday. If you saw her smile early in the morning, you'd almost think she wasn't the Devil in disguise. Almost.

"Psssttt" Chloe nudged my side. "What!?" I rolled my eyes at her. Class just started and she was already disturbing me. Don't get me wrong, I love her to death but she really doesn't care about school. Nor do I tbh but she's just next level.

"Derek Shepherds is throwing a party on a school night. Do you think he will invite us?" She asked with hope in her eyes, clearly ignoring my eye roll.

"Yes of course he will. But gosh, let's hope we don't forget to bring the flying pigs this time. The last time we forgot and remember how disappoi-" I was cut off by Chloe smacking my arm. "Yes, we know you love sarcasm. God, can a girl not dream?"

"Not during History class, no"

Wait a minute.....I didn't speak. Both of us looked behind us, only to be met with Mrs. Stinsons' face.

Of course.

"Detention. After school. Both of you" I scoffed "There you go, already invited to the pre party" Yes, I'm a bitter person. I don't fit in and I refuse to call myself a misfit. I'm not a misfit just because I don't match with some jocks and cheerleaders. They're the misfits for not being on the same level as me.
"I bet he's gonna be there" said Chloe, snapping me outta my could be monologue about self love.

Adrian. Damn it.

Self love and worth can fuck itself. I gotta find a way to get invited. Ugh.

"Okay, well, we can brainstorm during the detention." I shrugged "I mean, what else are we gonna do amirite?" Nodding, Chloe took out her phone. "We could also decide what we are going to wear."

"Geez, Louise. Let's get invited first." We spent the rest of the period pretending to listen while daydreaming about our own crushes. I had Adrien and Chloe had Charles, her neighbour. She has had the hots for him since she was three and man, does she have it bad for him. When she's not daydreaming about him, she's helping him get out of relationships by pretending to be his girlfriend.

I mean, at least I don't have to pretend to be something I really want to be only for him to break my heart again. Honestly? I kind of hate Charles. Chloe is a real nice person and anybody would kill to date her. I, myself had a little crush on her before we became friends.

"C'mon, let's go" said Lolo (that's my nickname for her), grabbing my hand and dragging me to the washroom.
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"You didn't bring your lunch today?" I shook my head. I was so busy making it to school on time that I completely forgot that I need to eat to survive.
Why was I late? Because my little brother hid my backpack. If you're wondering why he did that then honestly, your guess is better than mine. Who knows why he does anything? All I know is my parents didn't want to use protection one night and I've been suffering ever since, sigh.

"Alright, have some of mine" Lolo smiled. "I've got chicken sandwiches" THIS is why we are friends. "I love how much you care about me but I'll just go buy some. Thank you though." I said while getting up. Chloe has a big appetite, which is amazing and also the reason why I'm not accepting her generous offer. The only thing bigger than her appetite is her heart and we don't take advantage of kind people around here.

I walked towards the lunch lady, dreading whatever was being served today. Pouting, I reached for a plate mindlessly, only to be startled because somebody's hand grabbed mine, probably thinking it's a plate.

I looked up, ready to curse at whoever was annoying enough to cut line and ignore the fact that I was right there, only to be met with electric blue eyes looking down at me in confusion.

Oh no. Not him. Ugh. Fuck. What do I say?

"A-Ad-ugh" I could imagine how much he was judging me right now, a flustered mess. He squinted his eyes at me and leaned forward....closer to my face. I could see his eyelashes and man, they were so long and beautiful. If I could only touch them once-oh no no no no. Snap out of it, Viii!

Oh god, this is my nightmare. Wake up. Wake up. Wake up, you stupid fuck.

"I'm sorry, did I get in your way?" He said in a tone which clearly implied that he was in fact, not sorry. He was not sorry at all. I scoffed a little on the inside. Of course he doesn't feel sorry, he thinks he owns the school and can do literally as he pleases. I hate his entitlement.

Despite my hatred for his entitlement though, my heart was racing just because he got a little close to me. I am such a dumb bitch, do I really have to make it so obvious? Taking a deep breath, I decided I will answer him. That's right. I'm smart, I'm pretty, I'm just reaching for a plate after standing in a fucking line. Im not in the wrong.

I'm not in the wrong.

"N-no...I just..um-I just was getting the p-plate" I stuttered. I might be stuttering and have had a crush on this guy for years but I'm pissed right now.

Not at him but at myself.

I'm a strong, confident, intellectual girl. Why the fuck was I a stuttering mess right now? Ugh.
He chuckled. Does he....find this amusing? Everybody was staring at us now. Nobody raised their voice or anything and nor were we fighting. But nobody could miss the stuttering mess of a girl, all flustered in front of Adrian.

Okay, Vi. I know you're shy but goddamn it, collect your self. Remember: boys may come and boys may go but self respect is forever.

"Okay" I said, taking a deep breath. "You know what? Why don't you grab the plate and get the food, I'll get it after you" I smiled, making way for him and gesturing with my hand that the floor was now his...to get the food, I mean.

Wow, I actually spoke a proper sentence to him. I was feeling so proud of myself that I almost didn't notice how confused he looked. Did he expect me to fight? or cry? Raising his brow at me, he said "No, thank you. Think I've had my fill." and winked at me.

Oh my god. Mission abort. Mission abort. His wink, oh god his wink. I've seen him winking at others but have never been the target of such a goddamn deadly wink.

I know, I know. You must be thinking 'wow, what a dumb girl.' Truth be told, I myself would think that if I was reading my thoughts but I am not....you are though.

"Please" he said, disturbing my cute little breaking of the fourth wall. He motioned for me to stand in the front and as I did and stood beside me. Okay, fuck it. Everybody is still staring and the quicker I get food, the quicker I'll get outta here. I bet Chloe is sitting at a distance enjoying the show. What a great friend, I'm so getting back at her for this.

"Well, thank you." I said, stepping forward. I could see he didn't expect that, at all. But he stayed to watch for whatever reason. Instead of engaging further though, I asked the lunch lady (who btw has been standing here, looking pissed as hell) to give me some Pomodoro Spaghetti and finally, grabbed a plate and handed it to her to fill.

"There you go" I leaned forward on the counter to grab my plate. But as soon as I did that, I felt Adrian getting way too close to my left cheek. I turned my head to tell him off but what happened shook me to my fucking core.

Adrian Fucking Smith just kissed me. In front of the entire goddamn school.

Fuck.

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