JUNE 27
8:25 PM
hey! i'm veronica, and this is my spam book. i'd make an aesthetic intro but that's not important right now. what's important is me explaining everything.
so before i start, just know that you don't need to forgive me! i was an immature bitch, and don't really deserve forgiveness after all the shit i caused. don't feel forced to even reply, just please hear me out.
so first. i'm an all lives matter supporter?
never in a million years. i was uneducated, clearly. my family all support #alm and trump, so i just lowkey copied. anyway, my sister also had wattpad and i couldn't say #blm because my mum would kill me. i know i should have spoken up and confronted her, but we don't have the best relationship.
all we do is argue. i feel like she hates me. i don't even do anything. it used to be worse, to the point where it got physical. but i'm not comfortable talking about it, just in case, you know? so baisically me and my family don't get on very well.
so someone asked me if i support blm and my sister knew so i had to reply with i support alm and of course they got pissed off, and i don't blame them!
soon it got very public that i "support alm"
people spoke shit about me. people reported me. people spread rumours.
and i don't blame any of you, by the way.
you were doing the right thing!
so then my sister deleted wattpad and i pretend to as well, but i still have it. i looked at some of the links people sent me and educated myself.
i've never regretted anything more than what i did. i support black lives. i will stand up for them, and after reading what they go through, i didn't care about my parents views on them. they're just your classic white family and never will be anything more.
so i donated, signed petitions and all that. i'll see if i can find a link! so no, i don't support alm and never will. black lives need our support, and i want to make a difference.
so, i also was a bitch.
i honestly want to cry when i think about it. i just thought, they're all going against me so i'll show them what it feels like. and yeah, it was stupid and i regret it so much. i pmed some people to follow me. that's pretty much it.
i had a break down and took my anger out on someone. it was so so so wrong. she said we're good, but i feel like she doesn't forgive me just yet. i don't blame her. i was childish.
i came across as rude on my message board. i'm so sorry, i was angry at everyone. i was forced into believing stuff and just took my anger out on everyone. it was unnecessary and silly, yes, i'm aware. again, i swear it'll never happen again.
i'm trying to fix my mistakes.
that's it for this chapter. sorry it wasn't aesthetic and there's no layout or intro, i just felt like this had to be said and that this was more important than a stupid intro.
stay safe loves. an apology will be on the next chapter, seeing as this wasn't really enough.
ps. go follow -jamespotters! my bb is almost at 300!! 💕
