My What If's Turns Into I Should Have (ONE SHOT)

ONE SHOT

"MY WHAT IF'S TURNS INTO I SHOULD HAVE "

Hi my name is Elle, a 3rd year high school student. I have a crush on Dave, our class president. He's really my ideal guy. I kept my feelings for him for about 2 years now? Idunno, I lost count. Whenever he's around, I will hide somewhere because I'm too shy to face him. I have these questions in my head ; "What if he doesn't like me?", "What if he rejects me?", "What if he thinks I'm stupid?",etc. I always have those what if's.

We were like a stangers to each other.... I think? We're just nodding our heads when we see each other on the road, and that's it! Nothing more, nothing less. But then, I decided to tell him today my feelings towards him. I feel nervous, yes. This is my first time doing this.

I'm here now inside our room. Waiting for him to arrive. I even played FLAMES with our names written on it.

And then minutes later, I saw him entered the room, I gulped and fixed myself, I sat properly and fixed my hair. He then walked towards me while both of his hands are inside his pocket. He stood in front of me.

"Hi.." There, I finally spoke, trying not to stutter. Thank God I did not! 

He then smiled at me while saying, "Hello".
What should I do next? Aahh I'm not good to this.

"Uhm.. What's wrong? Is there something you wanna talk about?" he asked me calmly.

"I... I have something to tell you." I said. Good thing that it's just the two of us here in our room.

"Ahm... Yeah?" he then tilted his head, looking at me with his confused face.

"You know, we're not even that close ... I'm sorry but I can't stop myself from liking you.. " I finally said it! And I didn't even stuttered! I'm literally shaking right now!

He looked so shocked. But seconds after, he awkwardly smiled at me then he rubbed his nape.

"Ahh, you know what? I actually liked you before, but I'm really shy to tell you about it..."

Gosh... Does he like me too?! I'm smilling while waiting for him to finish his statement while playing with my fingers on my back.

"But, I'm sorry to tell you this... I have a girlfriend now... It's too late... Uhh, B-But we can still be friends! if that's okay with you." he said and then smiled at me.

It breaks my heart but I managed to smile back. To get myself out from embarrassment.

"YEAH! THAT'S GREAT!" I chuckled softly.

He just nodded to me and went back to his desk.

I don't know what to do so I just got my bag and went to the garden. I'll just ditch my first subject. I think I can't focus because of what just happened earlier.

I finally arrived at the garden, I sat under the tree and I just realized some things while looking at the plants in front of me.

"I should've told him years ago."

"I should've not be scared years ago, maybe this won't happen if I'm just brave."

"I should've gave him hint that I like him years ago so that he can make a move??"

"I should've approached him before."

We can't really control our destiny, but we can do something about it. We just have to trust and encourage ourselves to do what we want to do. You have choices, you're just ignoring and not doing it. Don't think about the negative things. It will just stop you, so think carefully and positively, because you might loose the best day of yours if you didn't do it.