Oh my head. WHAT? I woke up and saw myself naked with the boy I met yesterday, and it is just after a few minutes when everything that happened last night dawned on me. Shit. I just had sex with him, which means he had taken the most important thing in my life, the thing which I treasured the most. I tried to get up and looked for my clothes. He's still asleep and he's on top of me. My whole body is hurting from all my struggles and his punches last night.
I better get going or he'll do it to me again or maybe he'll do worse this time. I tried pushing him away from me, but he's so heavy. I slowly moved him on to the sofa and sneaked out of the tree house after getting my clothes on.
Where do I go now? I can either find my way home or just run away from here and see where my feet would take me. There so many trees, I might get lost. Maybe I'll just run in one way and see where I'll end up. And that I did. As I was running and trying get out of the forest by the path we took when we came here yesterday. I tried to retrace it, and luckily one good thing happened, I didn't get lost, I was back in the park. And once more having a dilemma on deciding where I will go. I have to run, away from that pervert. But I have to go somewhere safe and where he wouldn't find me. Home. That's the first thing that came into my mind. But do I want to go home? Do I want to go back to my parents? Will I tell them what happened to me? Will they believe me? I just stood as these questions roamed my mind.
I need and want to get away from him. Even before my mind could think of a more rational decision, I started running back home. I don't care what will be the consequences of my decision. All I want now is get away from here and stay in my room. I wouldn't mind their maltreatment. I just needed somewhere I could stay now.
After a few minutes of running, I was back at home. I carefully climbed the tree next to my room and wished that they wouldn't see me. I opened my window and slowly went in my room. I rushed to the bathroom, and opened the shower with trembling hands as the memories of what happened yesterday kept replaying in my mind. As soon as the water came down on me, the tears which I have been keeping this morning came out. I can't believe he tricked me. I trusted him, but he hurt me. I thought he was different, I thought he was someone who cares for me. But I was all wrong. After taking the shower and changing my clothes and curled up in my bed, hugged my knees till it reached my head. And there I cried out all of what I have been restraining.
"LUELLA" oh I have to get up, I have to keep going. There no rest. I heave myself out of bed and down stairs. Oh shit it's the boy from last night, what's he doing here? Oh not dad looks angry. I not meant to have 'friends'.
"He wants to know if you can come out. Off you go. Be back in 4 hours!" I could tell that I was in for it went I came back. So I ran out the house.
"Coming" I said to the boy, holding in my tears. The sight of him brought back memories off that night. We walked to an old abandoned park. He sat on the swing.
I'm so sorry about what happened. I wouldn't normally come back, but I have to tell you that, you're going to be pregnant." he looked up at my face. I was crying I can't have a kid in that house. "And by the looks of our house, you aren't loved; I don't want you or this kid to getting hurt because of me."
"IT'S TOO LATE FOR THAT!" I screamed at him.
"It's not. I have a flat and I would be happy to have you stay with Me." he's voice was calm and he seem to be telling the truth.
"How?" I wanted to get away from the house, but could I trust this boy. He raped me, but he seemed sorry.
"Come with me now, I will show you and if you don't want to I will take you home." he just looked at the floor "I've got your clothes you left it in the tree house"
"What so you just get do that to me and I am meant to trust you" I screamed well still crying.
I'm sorry Luella. I never wanted to do that. My mates gave me some stuff and I was high. I promise I will never do that ever ever again. Please I never wanted this to happen... when I woke up this morning I could have killed my life. I took advantage of you, I should never have done that, let me earn your trust please." He pleaded with me.
I didn't know what say, he was been nice again. Does this mean I can trust him? Should I trust him? Well I guess theres no way to find out. I agreed to go with him. He lead and I followed. It took 40 minutes of walking to get to his flat. It was a small flat with 2 bed rooms, good, it was very clean, good again, and it was only on the second floor.
"So what do you think are you staying?" he looked me right in the eyes when saying this.
"I think so, but I have nothing, I can't pay to stay. I don't have much at all." I said looking at the floor.
"It's my fault; you can stay for as long as you want. If you don't any money, I have enough." he smiled at me, wow he is good looking. I couldn't help smiling back.
"Thanks" I said, adding "I guess"
"You hungry?" he asked. I nodded. He went to the phone and orders a pizza. "It's coming. I'm so sorry about what I've done to you. You alright?"
"I'm ok, I think. Why though" I asked him. I wanted to know why he would do it to me and then come back and say sorry and let me live with him. Oh and the kid.
"I was high. I have never done it before, and I can't remember much. But I couldn't just leave you. Your body was covered in cuts and purses; you were wearing very old clothes. I didn't want you to be in that with a kid. Or you. I will do anything to make it up to you I swear" he looked me in the eyes, he knew about my life. He knew me. There was a long silents, until the doorbell went off. Dylan answered the door, the pizza was here.
He opened it and put in on the table in front of us. "Eat up." I grapped a piece and ate it. He was eating a lot slower than me. I grapped another and ate it. He seemed to be nodding.
After we had finished the pizza, I put the box in the bin. If he was letting me stay here for free, I would help around the house. I can back and sat down again. He grabbed the remote and switched on the TV. And then sleep hit me.
My eyes flitted open; I just lay there waiting for my dad or mum to shout me. But as I looked round I saw I wasn't in my room. I was in Dylan's. Oh I went sleep on a sofa and now I'm lying in a bed. He must have but me to bed. I tip toe out the bed and out the room. I see Dylan staying in the kitchen making toast. My stomach rubbles, like he heard it, his head snaps round.
"Morning sleepy head," he says to me.
"Erm morning" I say staring at the food in his hand
"Do you want some?" I nod my head slowly expecting him to laugh like my dad would have done. Tears fall from my eyes. "Luella what's up? Shh don't cry"
"I just can't believe I'm not there anymore."
"Shh don't cry. I won't let anyone take you back there. I will do anything to protect you. Don't cry babe." He puts his hand on my shoulder well saying this then pulls me in to a hug. I just cry in to his shoulder. "I don't want you to think about there, this is now your home for as long as you want it. We will go out and get some clothes and something to make that room in to yours. Don't worry about anything." And with that promise I look in to his eyes and we just stand there.
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