Venji One-Shots

One Moment

The Motel Kiss from Benji's POV

"I guess we should probably get to sleep, huh?" I say turning and smiling softly at Victor.

"Yeah, yeah we should" Victor said looking down and smiling.

"Goodnight." I said turning over and turning off the light.

"Night." I heard Victor say right before the light went out.

I close my eyes and try to find sleep, honestly, I feel a little vulnerable. I've never told anyone the whole story of why I don't drive. Before I can think too much about it I feel Victor's hand on my shoulder.

"Hey is everything okay?"

Then Victor's hand is on my cheek pulling me into a sweet kiss, I grab onto his arm to steady myself. Just for a moment I kiss him back and it feels amazing. Until all the reasons I should not be doing this pulls me out of the moment and I find the strength to push him away.

"Victor, no." I say watching his hands, because if he pulls me in for another kiss, I won't be able to deny him.

The look on his face is dazed at first then mortified. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry Benji." He said getting up and heading for the door.

"Victor wait." The door closes without him even looking back.

I sit there for a minute just processing what happened. He kissed me and I more than liked it and I didn't want him to stop. My fingers linger on my lips where he kissed me, and I feel terrible because I know in a way, I led him on. I suspected that he might be...but then he was with Mia, plus I have Derek. Victor and I we're just friends, at least that's what I told myself.

I can't deny that I feel a special connection with him, he's the first person I've told about why my license is suspended. I never told Derek about it because I didn't want to hear his opinion on it. He'd just make me feel even worse about it than I already do. Victor would never do that and he didn't he just listened. I feel safe to tell Victor anything.

Everything is ruined now though Victor and I cannot go back to being friends, not after that kiss. Things with Derek might be rocky right now. But to throw away a year's worth of a relationship to try and be with someone who is clearly still trying to figure things out. I do not want to lose Victor's friendship, but we can't be friends and deny whatever this thing is between us.

I lie in bed thinking about everything. I'm going to have to stay away from him. It's best for both of us. I'm exhausted and worried about him he's been gone a long time. Then I hear him at the door my back is facing the door, so I close my eyes and pretend to be asleep. I peak a little after the door closes and see him head into the bathroom with a pillow and a blanket. In just one moment everything changed and I'm still not sure if it's for better or worse.