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by bigheadhamid

by bigheadhamid

I heard my phone ringing so turned over and grabbed and seen it was my mom I rolled my eyes and answered
N-yes
Nm-are u up yet
N-no
Nm-well get up u have to be there by 12:00
N-ok
Nm-thank u
I hung up and sat my phone on the bed then I felt a squeeze on my ass and I realized Alex hand was in my shorts resting on my ass
N-Alex I have to get up
A-no*snuggles into her chest*
N-Alex
A-I'm comfortable
N-plz can I get up ur gonna make me late
A-fine
I got up and went to our closet grabbed some clothes and got dressed

I did my hair eye lashes and eyebrows because I wasn't going do my makeup because I wasn't in the mood for it

I put on lip gloss and I looked at Alex and he was still sleep so I went over to him and kissed his cheek grabbed my phone purse and left

*at therapy*
Before I walked in the building I took a deep breath then walked in I checked in and wait about 20 minutes and this lady came out and took me to her office
??-hi im mrs.wright
N-hi I'm Nova Guzman
Mw-can u tell me a bit about ur self
N-umm will I'm married with 3 kids and I have a lot of mental health issues so I'm pretty sure my mom did this because she's worried for my safety
Mw-we type of mental health issues
N-depression suicidal having mental break down those kinda things
Mw-have u ever tried to commit suicide
N-yea many of time and I'm not proud of it but when I'm at my lowest I feel like I have no one to talk to so I try to kill myself or find things to help me from suicide
Mw-I'm srry for asking but have u tried to attempt to kill ur self or self harm
N-actually not to long ago I was raped and found out I was pregnant I kept the baby but a month after she was born she past and I tried to overdose and I've cut but I stop yesterday because yesterday was...*takes a deep breath and hold back her tears*yesterday was her funeral and that really hit hard because she's the first kids I've ever lost so*starts crying*I'm srry*wipes her tears*
Mw-no ur fine ur ok to cry losing a kid can be hard
N-I mean I have people to talk to but I choose not to because I feel like they wouldn't get it u know
Mw-yea Ik I lost my son 3 years ago and I felt like nobody would get how I felt so I stay in my room and would draw till I felt like I was comfortable to be around people is there anything u can do other then cutting
N-uhh idk
Mw-how about u try and go for a walk or if u feel like ur at ur lowest come to me and we'll work on things other then hurting ur self ok
N-ok
We seat and really got to know each other after I left it was 3 so I went back home

*at home*
I walked in the house and it was a little to quiet so I went to the kitchen and didn't see Alex I went to the living room and he wasn't there
N-BABE
A-YEA
N-WHERE ARE U
A-UPSTAIRS
I sat my purse on the couch and went upstairs to our room and when I opened the door I stopped in my tracks because I was surprise to see the Alex in his boxers standing next to the bed and not gonna lie seeing his bulge kinda turned me on
N-oh uhhhh...baby whts this
A-well for the past couple day I've been have umm..wet dreams and in the middle of the nights I've been getting boners but I've been fixing them because I didn't wanna ask u because u have so much going on I didn't think it'll been the right time to ask u but after u left I had a wet dream and I got sexually frustrated because it wouldn't go down but idk if ur ready yet so ig this is me asking u if we can have sex*looks away from her*
He looked everywhere else but me and I could tell he was embarrassed because he was scared of getting rejected but tbh I was ready and I need a distraction from everything at the moment so I fully walked in the room closed and locked the door behind me he looked at me as I walked over to him once I got to him I wiped my arm around his neck and kissed him he slowly put his hands on my waist and pulled me closer as he deepen the kiss he fall onto the bed and I fall on top of him as the kiss began to be come more passionate
A-wait u sure u wanna do this I don't want u to feel like I'm pressuring u to do anything
N-Alex I'm sure I wanna get my mind of things so you'll be doing me a favor
He looked at me for a second then took of my shirt and kissed me again
*skip*

I slowly got off of Alex and laid next to him catching my breath while I looked at the ceiling
N-not ha-having sex for almost a year can really make u feel some type of way
A-yep
Nm-MIJA
Me and Alex quickly looked at each other and got up but my leg almost gave out so I let out a whimper alex looked at me and smile then he put back on his boxers and I went and grabbed one of his shirts and put it on
A-u didn't tell me she was coming back over here
N-I didn't know she was coming
My mom literally hates when she hears or know that we had sex or even if the rooms smells like sex she hates it and idk u but she's just weird like that but we're use to it
N-spray the room with something she coming up the stairs
Nm-MIJO
A-YEA*looks for the Febreze*
NM-WHERE IS NOVA
A-WHERE IN HERE
A-where tf is the spray
N-idk use some of my perfume
He went and grabbed some of my perfume and quickly sprayed the room and put in back he unlocked the door got back into bed and I sat on it and that's when my mom came in
N-hey mom
Nm-hi u two nova how was the session
N-it was good we really got to know each other and that was it
Nm-u seem a little more happy and wht not
N-i actually feel good I mean it felt good to get out by myself
I looked at Alex and he looked at me trying not to laugh
Nm-I've that u got to get out by yourself and just got to spend time with yourself I actually have something for u
She handed me two picture and I looked at it and bit my lip trying not to cry
*the pictures*

The more I looked at them the more I missed her so I took a deep breath and looked up so the tears wouldn't roll down my face because I didn't wanna cry
Nm-I figured you'll want them
N-thank you
Nm-yw but I sure head back to the house oh and the kids are staying one more night
N-ok
Nm-bye
N-bye
She left and I stared at the pictures until I felt Alex rub my back
A-u need a hug
N-*nods her head and starts crying*
He hugged me and tbh my mom kinda killed the mood but I guess u can say it was worth it because now I have pictures of faith after I finished crying I put the pictures on the body mirror then me and Alex got in the shower got out did our normal thing when we normally get out the shower I put on a sports bra and some underwear where and put on some sweats and we got into bed and watched Netflix until we went to sleep