At the start of November I became friends with this girl let's call her layla I thought she was really nice and popular but it turned out no one liked her and my best friend hated her but I didn't care I started hanging round with her more and more and my best friend became more distant. By the end of the month it was like the whole school hated me. I was getting hate online people calling me fat or ugly and even telling me to die. This is what triggered my eating habits. I started eating one small meal a day. As time went on the hate started getting worse and I started having panic attacks whenever I had to go to school. This went on for months and my attendance at school went down dramatically. By this time I wasn't mates with layla so people weren't giving me as much hate but all my eating and anxiety was still there so the school offered me a trial at a new school which I would go there for six weeks and then decided weather I wanted to stay there or not. So I went and things were going well until this girl that was mates with Layla and started being a bitch so my anxiety came back. So I went back to my school by that time everyone was fine with me and I was mates with the girls who hated me. A few months had past it was now June and I was still in my eating habits but I had lost weight so I guess that was good. But all of a sudden my anxiety got worse and worse so my mum took me to a mental heath doctor who diagnosed me with anxiety and depression. Then transferred me to chams we're I talked with this lady and she had to call the eating disorder clinic and I talked to them and they said I was developing an eating disorder. I told my friend at the time Charlotte and she didn't really give a shit but I didn't really notice that tbh. A month had past and my depression got really bad I had suicidal thoughts and my anxiety was through the roof. So I told my bestmate Charlotte and at the time it seemed like she cared. Me and Charlotte fell out and weren't mates anymore that's where my whole world fell apart I was starting to get back to myself after the layla incident but now it was like the darkness pulled me back down and everyone started to hate me again. No one knows what I'm going through and as days go on I want to die more and more . It's like I'm silenced like no one wants to listen.
