LIGHTS ➵ H. JOOCHAN

10

Golden Child walked together towards the school building. Sungyoon wrapped around his arm around Joochan's shoulder. "where did you go last night?" he asked.

"Han mansion. i talked to Mr. Han about joining them and he was pleased but we can't avoid the training." he answered Sungyoon. "did you met Sooah then?" Jangjun asked smiling at him. Joochan answered with a nod.

"you should have bring us!" he exclaimed loudly. as they get closer to the main entrance, they heard a loud bang from inside. "what was that? did someone accidentally bumped into a locker?" Donghyun asked.

"YOU SICK BASTARD!"

they were startled by the loud shout of a girl. Joochan hissed, "i don't think someone accidentally bump into a locker." he stated and walk faster leaving his friends who were yelling for him to get slower.

he know that it was Sooah because she swore that he will kill Seo Kangmin if she saw him in school. last night, his father even ask him to keep an eye on her and don't let her kill the poor boy, even how big their hate for the Seo is. 

Joochan pushed away anyone that was blocking his way. after getting a clearer view, he was greeted by Sooah who was choking Seo Kangmin. 

"you only want money from my father is it?" she choked him harder. "you are so shameless, just like your father. you only want to marry me just for the lust of power and money." she spat in his face.

Kangmin was squirming and tried to push her away from his neck but she was stronger. "S-Sooah.. let m-me go.." he pleaded choking on his breath. "5 billion? you can ask it but not from my father." she continued.

slowly his face was turning blue because lack of oxygen. Sooah didn't care what condition he is now or how she look like a mad woman choking one boy right now. she just want Seo Kangmin die.

"Sooah!" her hands were yanked away from Kangmin's neck making him fell on the floor trying to catch some oxygen. but eventually he fainted and was carried by his two goons to the nursing room.

Joochan wrapped his arms around her locking both of her hands on her sides, who trying to run over the nearly die Kangmin. "LET ME GO! LET ME KILL HIM. HE--" she was cut by Joochan, "HAN SOOAH YOU LISTEN TO ME!" she eventually stop squirming under his grip when she heard Joochan burst.

he pulled her making her back bumped with his chest. "you can't do like this. you nearly kill someone." he whispered angrily. "who cares if i kill him?!" she shrieked chest rising up and down in anger.

"Han Sooah, i don't really like your behavior right now." he scolded. "you can deal with him later but not like this way. that's so unprofessional." he continued consoling his fiancee. Sooah didn't answer him but just let it be. she feel tears down her cheeks as it drips on Joochan's hand.

her head was down as she continue silently crying. students were shock by the scene that happened. Joochan who never touch or lay his eye on a girl, was still locking Sooah with both of his arms. Sooah, who was known as the fierce girl was crying and a man was there to calm her down.

"go back to your class now!" she heard someone yelled at the students, slowly footsteps were fading away from them. 

Sooah stopped crying but feel her body was swaying but Joochan hold them. she suddenly feel the world was spinning and black dots started forming as she fell limp in his arm. 

"SOOAH!" 

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Sooah opened her eyes slightly squinting at the bright light. she look around the white room realizing she was in the nursing room.

her heart clenched at what happened. she cried and fainted in front of students. that never happened to her before. she was stress over the antidote, the skull tattoo and Mr. Seo who was out of nowhere coming claim 5 billion from her dad.

she slowly sat up on the bed. she never feel this weak before. she was look up high by the other clans and mafias leader. but now, she feel ashamed.

"you are awake."

she looked up her fiancee. she didn't answer but her eyes followed him until he sat on the chair beside the bed. she just stare at him.

"why are you staring at me like that?" he awkwardly laugh under her uncomfortable stares. she was thinking why he always there when she needed someone. why he choose her to be his fiancee when she was weak. Sooah was overthinking.

"am i that weak?" she asked choking on her tears. Joochan was startled at her question. "no, you are not weak at all." he answered looking into her eyes. "but i was unprofessional just now." she sobbed. 

Joochan's heart clenched at what she stated. he suddenly feel guilty what he had said to her. "no no. you are not--" he was cut by Sooah wrapping her arms around his torso crying in his arms. he didnt' know what to do so he just pat her back trying to sooth her out.

"i don't even know myself now. i'm not like this before." she cried. "i'm scared, Joochan-ah. father is going to leave me soon. he was paler than before, i seen him coughing blood more lately." she sniffed. "what if he leave me? who will take care of me?" 

she know that she can be independent but she still need attention or care from anyone. she was still an 18 years old girl. she didn't think that she would be praised high if she wasn't Mr. Han's daughter, if she wasn't train like her men were trained and if she wasn't the one and only girl heir in mafias clan.

"i will be with you." he blurted. he realized that his feelings slowly blooming. "thank you." she whispered.

"but, don't tell this to any soul. especially your friends." she suddenly said sternly. Joochan chuckled. "i wont."

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after school, Sooah went to a gloomy looking place, which was full with headstones. she bought a bouquet roses walking towards a grave.

she put the roses in front of the headstone then bowed respectfully at it. 

JUNG YEJI
1950 - 2015
"here lies a brilliant wife and a mother, rest well angel."

she cleaned out the grass that was grown around the stone. "mother." she greeted with a smile. "how are you up there? are you doing well?" 

she sniffed. "mother, i'm scared. i'm scared that father will leave me soon. he was getting sick day by day." she cried. "father had arranged me with his best friend's son, Hong Joochan was the name. he is a great guy."

feeling her legs tired she then sat down on the grass facing the headstone. "i don't know what is this feeling but i'm getting butterflies when i'm around him. what does that mean mother?" she still ask knowing that only the sound of silent answering her.

"i don't know how to love someone, mother. i only know how to love father." she chuckled bitterly. "i don't even know if i'm falling for him." she frowned.

she then talked about her day towards her mother, who she believes that she was listening from above. after feeling half an hour, she stood up bowing before she left.

"i don't know who i can talk to, mother. i hope you listen to me or if can answering me through my dream. i love you mother. see you when i see you."