LIGHTS ➵ H. JOOCHAN

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on the next days, Sooah didn't talk to any of them. she also have been going out of the house frequently without telling them. 

7 days became 1 week. each day she got a threat from the enemy. 

Sooah was preparing for the breakfast, they were sitting down on the dining table in silence. only her movement could be heard in the mansion.

she was back to her old self. the cold and unfriendly Sooah. every time they tried to talk to her, she only gave them a glare or didn't even listening to them, even Joochan was pushed away. 

Sooah could hear them whispering about how they can make her talking again. she put the breakfast on the table making them shut their mouth. she sat on her seat starting to eat.

they ate in silence, only the spoon touching the plate was heard. she finished her meal first standing up putting her plate on the sink and walked out from the kitchen.

"Sooah where are you going?" she stopped her tracks turning to her fiancee who called her out. she raised an eyebrow at him. "and then what? you want to tell Seo Changmin what i have been doing?" she barked and walked away.

Joochan sighed heavily. Bomin looked at him with guilty face. "i'm sorry. its all my fault." he said. "no, its not your fault." Joochan answered him. "its just she didn't tell anyone where is she going. she always out from the house for hours." he continued. "i really don't like it when she keep everything secretly."

Sooah couldn't help but feel her heart clenched when she acted like that in front of them. its not like she did it on purpose, but she have to. for their safety.

she went up to the highest floor towards the meeting room. as soon as she sat down, she broke into tears. the members in the room waited for her to stop crying. its been a routine for them for almost 6 days.

"i can't do this. i can't avoid them anymore.." she cried. "my heart hurt so much. especially when i saw his face." she wiped her tears away.

"you are almost there Sooah." Seokjin said. "now wipe those tears, let's continue for the plan." he said. 

"i really don't know but why you don't want Hong's help. they are more stronger than us." Hoseok said. Sooah shake her head, "no. i don't want any of them to be involve." she answered.

"then, did Joochan know that you have been out to have meeting us for your plan?" this time Jimin asked. she just stay silent looking down to her lap.

Jimin groaned. "Sooah, he is your fiancee for sake! why didn't you tell him?!" he raised his voice at her. Sooah snapped her eyes at him.

"this is why i don't want be another burden for them! because i don't want them, especially Joochan to get hurt!" she yelled. "the enemy is going for me! if i drag them along, they will probably get killed!" she breath in rage.

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its was 12 in the midnight when a stone was thrown at her bedroom window. the stone was thrown into the bedroom with a note on it. she picked it up and read what it was written. 

she grabbed her phone and went downstairs to get her car key. she walked pass by golden child in the living room towards the door. 

"Han Sooah where are you going this time?" she heard Joochan called her but she ignored and continue walk to the door.

"Hong Sooah!" 

she stopped her tracks when she heard Joochan yelled her by his surname. she couldn't help but feel like she have sinned towards Joochan. she feel fear for the first time at him. she slowly turned herself facing him.

"i'm asking, where are you going?" he asked gritting his teeth walking towards her. "you have been out so many times these days. you don't even inform any of us where are you going, not even Byungchan." he stopped right in front of her.

she didn't answer him but looked away from his stares. Joochan scanned her face, he couldn't help feel suspicious at her. he have different thoughts on what have Sooah been doing.

"are you seeing someone else behind my back?"

Sooah snapped her head at him. she feel her heart was stabbed thousands times when he blurted those words. she could feel the hot tears forming in the corner of her eyes. "w-what?" she blurted.

Joochan scoffed, "see? you can't even answer my question. you are seeing someone else behind my back." he spat out. her mind suddenly went blank when he asked the question that any girl that love her soon to be husband would never like to be asked.

"Joochan.. stop it." Daeyeol pulled him back when he saw Sooah's tears fall down her cheeks and her face was red feeling ashamed.

"have you ever feel when someone you love is doubting you?" she gritted in tears. "i'm not like other girls out there. i don't want any money, i don't want anything else. i just want someone to care about me!" she exclaimed.

Joochan's face softened when she saw her in that state. he hurt her feelings. 

"for your information, i'm not seeing anyone else. i have been out for the plans that i need for all of you to be safe!" she yelled. "i have been receiving threats everyday. you expect me to stay still and wait for me to be killed?" she ranted.

"i did it all by myself because i don't want any of you to be drag along with the problems between me and the enemy!" she was frantically yelling looking at them one by one. she turned to Joochan. 

"and you're doubting me without any other thoughts." she shake her head in disbelief and ran out from the house.

she arrived at Bangtan and burst into the room crying miserable. Seokjin sighed, "what happened this time?" Yoongi asked rubbing his temple.

"i did this all to protect them. how dare he accused me like that.." she cried. "can't he see that i care about him?! that i love him?!" she yelled. "i just want them to be save!" 

"why can't they see like that?"

she threw the note on the table. 

"meet me at my headquarter at 11pm tomorrow. don't bring any weapons and don't bring anyone else.
- Seo Changmin."