You Were Mine

Chapter 5

(Shimizu)

Hitoka-chan was not herself today.

I waited like I always did outside her classroom after class to walk with her to practice, but today she ran away from me. She hid herself behind 2 of her classmates and ran out in the opposite direction. What was that about?

Also during training she was avoiding me, hell, she wouldn't even breathe in my direction. Even after practice, she didn't bother to change her clothes and went straight home. And now, she's taking really long to reply to my text. Does she even plan to reply at all?

Was it because... I held her hand today? Was it a mistake, was it too soon? Shimizu, you fucking idiot. You scared her, now she will never talk to you. Could I have done it later? Or was the physical contact too much? What could I have done wrong? Was I too hasty? Or maybe... Hitoka-chan has never had someone be explicitly affectionate to her??? Was she overwhelmed?? *sigh* I have so many questions. I try my best to ignore the biggest dilemma hovering above all others, the fact that she's probably straight...

(Hitoka)

I couldn't stop thinking about what Yuki and Satsuki said. Was I too blind? Too dense to even sense it? How could I have not noticed it? Or am I just misinterpreting everything? Either way, I can't bear myself to keep seeing her, I might give her false hope. I'm not ready to get married yeeetttt let alone be married to Kiyoko-senpai!!! I need time to decide, or maybe observe for now. What if she really was in love with me and I was just being dense and stupid?? Which brings me back to what Yuki and Satsuki talked about... maybe they misinterpreted Kiyoko-senpai? Or I misinterpreted Kiyoko-senpai's advances? Or Kiyoko-senpai misinterpreted herself? Or I misinterpreted myself? What if this was just a glitch in the simulation??? What if this whole misinterpretation was a misinterpretation?? What if the Gods just want to mess with my head because I'm so anxious I overthink and over-analyze everything???? WHY IS MY BRAIN WIRED LIKE THIS?????

The next day, I was even too anxious to go to school. What if I randomly saw her in one of the halls? What if she'll kill me because I ran away from her yesterday???? What if... *RIIINNNNGGGG* I was Hayase calling.

"Yachi, where are you??? Hurry up, sensei is here and you're late for class!!!"

I started to panic and hurriedly went to school. It felt like I was also training with the volleyball boys, I didn't realize I could run this fast.

I got to my classroom, and I was indeed in trouble for coming late to class.

Scratch that, I have even more problems to deal with after class.

It was the end of today's last period, the bell had rung, and my classmates were on their way home. I was too nervous to look outside, I might see her waiting for me in the hallway. I began to stall. I quickly took the broom and started blindly sweeping off nonexistent dirt on the floor. I couldn't look up so I just stared at the floor while pretending to be busy arranging the already arranged desks and chairs. I was so desperate to take longer, I even erased the nonexistent vandals on the blackboard. Still, I couldn't look up, but I had done every possible thing to buy me some time, it was now really time to go out of the classroom and face her. Watching my own footsteps, I approach the door.

"L-Let's go, Kiyoko-sen--"

(Shimizu)

I was on my way to go and get Hitoka-chan from her classroom like I always do. But I had to think twice, did she even want to see me? I doubt that she did.

I decided to turn back and the head the other direction, straight to the volleyball gym. I'm sure she now knows the way to the gym anyway.

Given that she even pretended that I didn't exist, I would be the last one she'd want to see if she even wants to see me at all. I guess I'll just have to deal with it. This was my fault after all.