Disclaimer: I come from a religious family so a lot of these 'dirty terms' I had no idea about. It doesn't mean I'm dumb, I'm just not as dirty-minded as the world lol.
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Hi, I don't know why you're here because my life is legit boring but since we're in quarantine, read ahead and laugh and give weird looks at this all you want. Obviously, I was convinced enough to expose myself like this so here we go I guess.
Teen, Leo, Black, Awkward. I always smile and joke to everyone because...I was the people pleaser. NOT LIKE THAT!! dang, you have a dirty-minded homo sapien. Lawdy...
What's a people pleaser? Someone who does something to make a person happy. Whenever someone's sad, the pleaser is sad. The pleaser feels torn down whenever someone doesn't like them. They'll say 'whatever, it doesn't bother me' but deep down it does. Wanna know the biggest con of being a people pleaser?
You. CAN'T. Say. NO.
It's almost impossible.
You're scared that if you decline, you've disappointed the person. You start thinking ways to make it up to them. You put THEIR priorities BEFORE YOURS. People use you and they'll only talk to you when they need something. You NEVER have time for yourself.
And it gets worse when you're a sensitive person, which I am. And I'm trying my best to get out of it. I had a friend in elementary and she was the sassy type. Every time at recess, she'll hog me and play with me but I tried to gather the courage to say no because I wanted time for myself but I couldn't find any so I made up a lie saying that my mom said I can't play with anyone at recess. She bought the lie at first but when she found out, I cried so hard. It wasn't even that big of a deal but my sensitive self made it to be.
I'm one of the smart kids in my grade. And when I tell you that people use me to cheat....bruh you would be surprised. There were times where I couldn't say no to help my friends cheat because I was afraid they would reject me or not be my friend anymore.
I have 3 siblings. 3 amazing siblings. 3 annoying siblings. 3 young siblings. 3 snitchy siblings. 3 beautiful siblings. 3 smart siblings. 3 prayerful siblings.
If you haven't noticed, I'm the eldest sibling, and sometimes I hate it. I hate being blamed for the actions of my siblings. I DO correct them but WHO EVEN LISTENS TO ME?! That's what I thought. My sister steals my clothes, she tries to blackmail and bribe me, thinking that she's the eldest and she calls me annoying. HONEY IT'S THE OTHER WAY AROUNDDDDDD.
Sorry, rant session over.
I've had crushes a few times. In 6th grade, I thought some guy was 'cute' and everyone was talking about it, making him popular than me. I don't really care about popularity in school but sometimes I wonder what it's like to have everyone respecting you, to have all teachers praising you, to be accepted to sit in the 'cool' side of the table and so on. I'm not popular but I'm not a outcast either.
I ran for Treasurer for the Student Council but I lost. Again, me being super sensitive for no reason, I cried about it and I'm CRINGING while typing this because who cries over losing a competition? Did Hillary Clinton cry when she lost to Trump? Maybe she did, I don't know, I don't even look at the news that much.
I'm Catholic. I repeat I'm Catholic. And before your ignorant self starts saying 'sOooOOo yOu WoRsHiP mArY?' No. No, we don't. We honour her because she's the mother of Jesus. And I'm gonna clear up something for y'all.
All Catholics are Christians but not all Christians are Catholics.
Make sense?
No?
It's kinda like the saying: "All rectangle are squares but not all squares are rectangles" or sum like that.
Are you baptist? Protestant? Methodist? Lutheran? Anglican? Those are all branches of Christianity and Catholicism is a branch of that too.
People at my school have some sort of disliking to Catholics and I don't know why. I had a friend who was a Christian and when I told her that I'm Catholic, she made a face. I was like: hun, you did that for what? and she said: y'all worship Mary, you're only supposed to pray to God bruh.
I-
ummmmm chile anyways so-
I'm an extremely innocent kid...well I was... you see, I had friends to ruin it for me so props to them. I was a Sex ED class, not knowing a THING because it was just weird and disgusting (but I became mature so don't come at me pls). It was 8th grade, at the rally. I was playing my clarinet and I hear someone say the word, "boner". I never heard of that word so I said, "What's a boner". EVERYONE WAS LOOKING AT ME LIKE: is this girl serious or sum?
Ever since then, life went downhill. Remember November? People made up that challenge called No Nut November. I THOUGHT it was for awareness for people with NUT ALLERGIES BUT NOOOOOOOO. I asked ppl what it meant but no one would tell me bc 'i'm too innocent' so I went to my teacher and asked.
You can imagine what happened next, I'm not telling you.
They say curiosity killed the cat but it also banned my search engine. I was searching up 69 bc i heard someone say it and a day after, the district banned my laptop so that was fun...
Call me a baddie, I won't disagree.
I don't cuss much. But when I do, it's usually unintentional. In 7th grade, we were reading Wonder (the kid, Auggie who was bullied for having a syndrome) and we came to the part where a girl, Savannah, was throwing a party (she was known for dating boys and dumping them). So a week later my teacher said, "who can tell me what they understand from last week?" I rose my hand and said, "Savannah is a hoe."
I AM NOT LYING AND YOU KNOW WhAT'S EVEN WORSE???
i didn't even know that 'hoe' was a bad word.
why?
BECAUSE EVERYONE SAYS IT DAILY SO I THOUGHT IT WAS AN OKAY WORD!
1 fact left, okay. well....um....I play the clarinet. I got accepted to Region Band and County Band. Met some friends there and I said thick in front of a thick guy on accident. I also broke the metronome in Region Band ON ACCIDENT!
So yeah.
My Life is a Series of Unfortunate Events.
Okay, I'm done exposing myself. Thanks for reading and I was inspired by skylaryaz who is an amazing writer and poet. Y'all should take a look, it's astronomically astonishing. If you're reading this, YOU MUST write facts about yourself as well.
