It was approaching midnight but I was awake, it was different, jet lag included to this entire exhibition. Luke's soft snores indicated he was in a deep sleep, giving me time to explore the house or so on. The only thing that was on my mind right now was James..
I mean his family most importantly before him, how were they handling this? How would they feel if they find out that the girl he was dating practically killed him? Yeah he done some pretty crappy stuff towards me but of course they never knew what he was really like, he always put up a front only I knew what he was like behind closed doors, even if I was to tell his family what he was like they would never believe me.. I guess I've just got to deal with the fact he is gone, I am never going to be hurt by him again, I'm free! I think.. I hope.
Luke's arm was still tangled around me, holding me in against him, I felt safe on the exterior but the inside, I felt like something bad was going to happen. It was like my stomach was continuously raging, twisting as the rest of my body was numb, like it weren't there and I couldn't control it. I panic, hoping I won't wake Luke but I panic, I panic because I don't know this feeling, I panic because I don't want to lose Luke, I panic because I'm losing myself already. If anything, I certainly hope, I don't lose everything right now. My parents, I wonder how they're doing, noticing that I'm not home anymore, gone without a note or like a message. I want to go home.
I look back to face Luke, his face eyes closed but still angelic. That's right, I'm only doing this for Luke.. I hold his face in my hands, staring at him, watching him fiddle before he raises a hand and intertwines our fingers, his eyes slowly opening as he stares at me.
"Are you okay?" Luke whispers, pushing the hair strands behind my ear.
"I'm scared Luke." I fake smile at him, he doesn't look entirely convinced but he questions my emotion and not my fake smile.
"Why are you scared?" Luke huffs, sitting up and pulling me closer to him.
"If they seperate me from you." I mumble, looking down at my legs as Luke kisses my forehead.
"That's never happening, I can assure you that." Luke smiles, playing with my hair.
"But you need to sleep, you're over thinking still, I can see it on your face Elle, relax a little, I'm going to protect you no matter what."
I lay down and Luke lays in front of me, I still carried on thinking about everything.
"Stop over thinking, I'm still watching." Luke chuckles and I just smile.
"The sun won't shine if you're not happy, you can't be the moonlight to guide me through the dark if you're not happy, I need you to be happy, I love you." Luke whispers, pulling me closer into his chest.
I heard Luke's soft snores which meant he was sleeping,
After I slowly drifted off into a deep sleep.
