Forever

practice

He isn't here.

It's been 10 minutes since practice started, and Tsukki isn't here yet.

Every single chance I get I am staring at the door, waiting for him to walk in. When he finally does there's a sick pit of dread in my stomach. 

He's walking, arm in arm with Nekoma's captain, smiling and laughing. 

Yachi glances at me, worry filling her eyes. 

I try to tell her I'm fine, that it doesn't matter but I know it's a lie. Is that why he got so mad this morning? Because he likes Kuroo and doesn't want me getting in the way? 

"Hello, Kuroo! What are you doing here?" Daichi steps forward to shake Kuroo's hand.

"Oh nothing, I just figured I'd drive Tsukki here-"

"Kei," Tsukki says, smiling at him.

"Kei, to his practice after our impromptu date this morning!" He smiles, pressing a kiss onto Tsukki's head. It's just- too much for me.

Tears lodge in my throat, making it hard to breathe. 

"I- I have to take a minute." 

I rush out the door, pushing past Tsukki and Kuroo, trying my best to hide the tears streaming down my face. I can hear Daichi telling Yachi to stay, give me some space.

Open the door, run down the halls to the bathroom, slump to the floor in the last stall. 

Cry.

"Yamaguchi?" A knock accompanies the familiar voice.

Oh god. A wave of panic sets over me, I can't let anyone see me like this.

"One second!" I quickly turn on the facuet, splashing the cold water on my face.

"I'm coming in!"

The door opens, revealing Suga.

"Are you okay? Whats going on?"

"I-" I start to turn away but he grabs my hands, looking me dead in the eyes. 

"Is it Tsukishima?" 

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After Suga asks the question Yamaguchi's expression changes completely. He slumps, sighing.

"It was that easy to tell?"

"Well, yeah. You have feelings for him right? It has to hurt to see him with someone else."

Suga rubs his back comfortingly as he starts to cry a bit. "Although I could have sworn he liked you too." He mutters under his breath, to quiet for Yamaguchi to hear.

"I talked to Yachi and Kiyoko-san this morning and they told me it would all be okay! But he shows up with Kuroo and I just-" He breaks down, sobs wracking his body. "I can't deal with this! I've cried 3 times this morning, not counting this, why does this hurt so bad?!? It feels like whats happening is all my fault, he's mad at me and I just- I fucked up so bad didn't I?"

"Of course it's going to hurt. You're perfectly normal for feeling this way. I can't tell you some magic secret to make it stop, but I can say that it's only going to make it harder if you keep holding on to him. Him being with Kuroo isn't your fault. I don't know exactly what happened but even if he is mad at you, you're a human being who makes mistakes. It's okay to mess up sometimes, as long as you make it right. Try to fix whatever it is the best you can, and if he's still mad, then you've done all you can do and just let him go. You're going to be okay."

Yamaguchi's hiccups slow, his breathing becoming less labored.

"This may seem like the end of the world now, like this is something you can't come back from, but believe me, it isn't. You can come back from this. You're strong, and this will pass."

"You're right." Yamaguchi looks up at Suga with a tear streaked face. "Thank you, Suga-senpai, this means a lot."

"No problem." Suga smiles at him, holding out his hand and pulling Yamaguchi to his feet. "Now lets go show Tsukishima what he's missing."

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did I write this bcs I feel like shit and wanted to write about suga saying comforting shit?

yep

I updated so yeet skeet see yalls in like a month

peace

alex