Pretty Footballer

THIRTY NINE 💫

I woke up and could hear my alarm going off so i got up and turned it off walking into the bathroom and using the toilet and then i started to feel sick and was sick in the toilet. After i flyshed the toilet i took my clothes off and got into the shower and i put my hands on my stomach as the water fell onto my body and over my face I looked down at my stomach "Mummy's going to look after you baby" i said as i stroked my belly which was still flat. I knew i was doing whats best and even know Trent may never forgive me I had to do it for both me and this baby.

I was finished and got out the shower wrapping the towel around my waist and tieing my hair up out of the way and I looked in the mirror and looked down at my stomach and in that very moment i couldn't believe I was growing a human being inside of me.
I started to cry but pulled myself together grabbing my toothbrush and brushing my teeth and then putting my moisturiser on and then walking out the bathroom and putting both my toothbrush and Moisturiser into my suitcase. I walked into my office and got dressed into my converse and grey joggers and picked up a hoodie which I knew i had seen before i smelt it and I knew it was Trent's. I thought in that moment to mail it back but then I knew i couldn't so I out it on. Knowing I'll have a bit of trent with me wherever I go.

I looked at the time and knew i had to go so i called for a taxi and got my passport, bag with my laptop and chargers in and my suitcase and locked everywhere up and locked the flat up and made my way downstairs to wait for the taxi. I felt very emotional, even though people would be ok with me being pregnant i didn't want to be held a count for trents career going downhill.
I went on my phone scrolling through the pictures of me and trent. I knew i had to eventually delete them but I couldn't not yet. I wasn't trying to forget abiut him because I loved him so much but I didn't want to ruin his life and thats why me moving away was the best thing I could do.
The taxi pulled up and i walked our putting my suitcase in the boot of the car and getting in doing my seatbelt up and the car started moving and I turned around to see the building including my flat getting smaller and smaller as i got further away.

We arrived at the airport with me paying the driver and getting out with my bag and getting my suitcase out. To say it was early in the morning the airport was packed with lots of people. I stood on the pavement and watched as the car drove away. It hit me i was actually doing it, i was leaving the city since i was three behind and I was going to Cyprus to get away from Liverpool. I pulled myself together and walked into the airport. I went straight to checking in and they took my suitcase and then told me that I would need to wait until the announcement comes on and so i carried my bag on my shoulder and went to the cafe and got myself a water and a muffin and sat on a nearby table. I felt terrible ignoring the calls and messages from trent asking if I was ok but I knew if i message him back or call him he would try and persuade me to stay and I needed to do this for me as well as the baby. I decided to take the sim out and then the announcement came that the plane had arrived and so i got up with my muffin and water and my bag on my shoulder and threw away my sim in the bin. It was for the best. I walked to the door and they checked my booking and passport and here i found myself walking down the hallway and onto the Plane. I went and sat down in my seat and i looked out the window to see John lennon airport, the airport that I had been to many times with Liverpool. I was going to miss the boys and Trent and my friends but me moving away was for the best.

The plane arrived after a five and a half hour plane journey and I put my headphones in and listened to my music and looked out the window the whole time as the plane flew away from Liverpool to Cyprus. During the journey my mum messaged saying she would be waiting at the airport for me. I hadn't forgiven her for not trusting trent and letting me live my life but I knew when I seen her and told her why I had to move away she would say that she told me so but anyway I got off the plane and stood waiting for my suitcase to come out. I felt quite nervous at the facy of seeing my mum after months of not seeing one another.
My suitcase came and I walked to the shop in the airport and brought a new phone sim and walked outside to looking to see if i could see my mum. Me personally I didn't know what to expect, how would she be? How would she act? I didn't know but their was only one way to find out and that's when i seen a car pull up and she got out.