New Life

Ms. Surabi

"No, Please leave me. Don't do this to me. Please don't do this. Leave me please"

"I have been waiting for this day Surabi. I cannot let you go that easily. I want you, Surabi. Don't push me away"

"No...No, Please let me go. Please leave me. I beg you, please leave me"

"Just stop and enjoy the moment, Surabi. It won't hurt that much"

"Please...."  my voice became muffled.

"Mamma, Mamma" i could hear Kushi's voice near me. 

My breathe is hitched, Kushi's screaming startled me and i was awake now looking at the surroundings.

My breathe gets normal once i realized that i am in my home, in my room.

"Mamma" i hear a soft tone beside me.

It's Kushi, my daughter. She looks frightened seeing me. Why not? It's the same nightmare i used to get it for years.

She always gets scared seeing me muffling and screaming whenever i get this nightmare. Since she is just 6 years old, she couldn't understand what I'm going through but definitely she gets scared.

I see my mom rushed to my room, looking for her and immediately grabbed her in her arms and left me alone in my room to get normal.

I shoved the blanket away from me and tried to get up to go to washroom, but i couldn't stand still because of my trembling legs. I fell in to my bed again, drank a bottle of water and take a deep breathe to come out from my worst dream.

After sometime, i went to the washroom to get refresh. I saw my mom is making Kushi to get ready for her school. Kushi dashed into my arms once she saw me coming out of my room.

She hold my face in her tiny hands and plants a kiss on my cheeks greeting me, "Good Morning, Mamma"

"Good Morning" i smiled at her giving her kiss back on her cheeks and send her back to my mom to get ready.

Soon, i too got ready to go to my office, my mom packed my lunch and kept it on the table saying, "Don't forget to take your lunch"

I just nod my head since me and mom are not in good terms. We just speak if it's necessary but our face expression tells everything what we want to convey to each other. Like actions speak more than words here. And our mediator is my daughter, Kushi.

I dropped my kid to her school, and drive back to my office. 

I parked my bike there and entered inside by greeting my employees. Yes, it's my office. A small interior decoration company "Elegant Designs" which i started 2 years back after finishing my diploma course in the same field. I worked on one of the famous Interior company to gain experience before i start my own. As in my company's name, I always prefer to provide Elegant designs with more attractive look.

I'm running this firm with 5 people including me, and able to get the orders and finish it with excellence within the deadline. Few orders came to me through my clients itself, since they were happy with my work and referred my company to their business circles. In that case, i am sure that I'm doing good in my work and make sure to keep my graph steady and high.

I got a call when i was checking my mails for the new orders, a bright smile appeared on my face seeing the name and image on my mobile.

"Hello Avantika" i connected the call happily seeing my friend's name.

"Hey Surabi, What's up? Busy?" she asked.

"I just came to office. What's the matter?" i came to the point because i know about her that she won't call me unless she has something important to talk.

"The matter is, i have arranged my son's birthday party tomorrow in my home. I want you to come with Kushi and mom" she said.

"Avanti, I'm sorry but i cannot come" i tried to make her understand that I'm not interested to come.

"Subi, i know the reason why you are not attending any parties. But how long you will be sulking over that incident which happened six years ago. Please come out of it and try to live and love your life. Get along with the people you knew. I'm your friend from your childhood days and you are refusing to come to my home too. It's really hurting me Subi." she said without taking a break.

"Avanti, please try to understand me" i literally begged her.

"No Subi, i didn't force you for anything knowing your situation. You even avoided my marriage but it's time to over come your past Subi. You cannot live your life like this. You are not even letting Kushi also get the happiness she deserved. At least just for her sake, i want you to come"

I  heaved a sigh, "I'll see it Avanti. I'll talk to you later about this" 

"Fine. But I WANT YOU TO COME TO MY HOME TOMORROW" she stressed each words and disconnected the call.

She is right. After that incident i avoided going to any parties even it is from my friends side. I even ignored Avanti's marriage since it happened some where out of the city and i was literally scared to go.

I even avoided the parties given by my clients giving them some lame reason. Because of me, Kushi is also not able to go anywhere and just stayed in our home even in holidays. But i should thank god that she is really a god's gift, i never seen her getting adamant for anything to get or crying over some silly things. I never seen her getting upset unless or until i get mood off. She is my life and I'm living this life only for her...just for her.

Later in the evening, Avanti messaged me again to come to the party and at last i decided to give a chance for myself to live. I replied her saying, "I will come" and she replied with a smile emoji.

Finally, i decided to change myself. I hope this change may bring a good fortune in my life.

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