Gang House

Part 23

Smut warning

                             ~Bella's POV~
i put my funeral dress in the very back of mine and Grayson's closet, never wanting to get it out again. i changed into a pair of sweat pants and one of Grayson sweat shirts. i took all my makeup off and threw my hair into a messy bun.

i laid down in our bed, wanting to just sleep, hoping all this is just a bad dream. i laid down for about 15 minutes, before i realized i couldn't fall asleep.

i got up, going to mine and Grayson bathroom. i looked through my drawer until i found it. my old friend i haven't seen in years.

my marble vape. *picture at top*

i pulled it out looking at it. this thing destroyed me. i hit it everyday until it got to the point where i was in the hospital.

i sighed before i walked out and onto the balcony outside of mine and Grayson's room. i turned it on and took my first hit in about 10 years.

it felt good. all the smoke filling my lungs and all the good memories came back. it reminded me of when me and my best friend in high school, Angelina, would skip school go smoke and do drugs. it was good times but then i met Grayson.

he made me even worse. i smoked at least a pack of cigarettes a day with him. he told me not to go to far but it was already to late. my lungs failed and the doctors said i was a miracle.

i was so scared i wasn't going to make it, so i cut it all out of my life until now.

"Bella." someone sighed. i turned around and blew the smoke out of my mouth. i saw Grayson standing there, with a disappointed look. i turned back around and inhaled some more. it's felt so relaxing and i can't stop.

"you said you threw it away." he said as he tried to take it away.

"well, i lied. it's been in the bathroom." i said emotionless.

"Bella. you can't start this. you remember what happened last time." i nodded my head.

"so you can smoke cigarettes but i can't vape?" i argued.

"i can control myself. you have a hard time doing so. i don't want you to fall back into that slump Bella. you have me, you have to kids, why? why are you doing this to yourself? let me help you." he said, this time he successfully took it out of my hands.

"Grayson! stop, give it back!"

"no. i'm doing this for you." he snapped it in half, making me mad.

"YOU BITCH!" i yelled at him. he pulled me into his chest, wrapping his arms around me.

"i understand baby. we all lost him. but you're the only one that holds this family together. i'm nothing without my wife. our kids need their mom. i need you to be strong for us princess." i shook my head.

"i can't Grayson." he held me tighter and kissed my forehead.

"yes you can babe. me and the kids are all right here." i nodded my head and brought him into a kiss.

he lifted me up and i wrapped my legs around his torso. he carried my to our bed, and laid me down gently. he pulled his sweat shirt off my body, leaving me in my bra and sweat pants.

"you're so beautiful, my love." he traveled down my neck, making me throw my head back. he immediately found my sweet spot, making me moan softly.

i pulled his shirt off him and he pulled my sweat pants off.

"Grayson." i moaned as he started kissing my clit. he flicked his tongue, making me scream since our walls are sound proof. i ran my fingers through his long hair and released.

he came back up and attached his lips to mine, making me smile.

"are you sure?" he asked. i nodded my head, thinking it's sweet how he always asks. he pulled his boxers off and unclipped my bra and took off my underwear.

he positioned himself, looking back at me. i smiled and kissed him. i felt him enter me, making me moan.

"Grayson." i whimpered. he kissed my neck and started moving slowly. i let out louder moans and he smirked.

"faster." he thrusted his hips forward, making me moan louder. he moved his hand down and started rubbing my sensitive clit fast.

i dug my nails into his back, which always drives him crazy. i heard him groan which turned me on even more.

"cum with me." we both released at the same time.

"i love you so much, and i promise, i'll always be here." he said as he pulled out. i whimpered as he did so.

"i love you too Gray." he smiled and kissed me before getting under me and laying me on top of him. we were both chest to chest, naked. i felt myself drifting off to sleep.

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i woke up, and Grayson wasn't beside me. i looked around and saw it's dark outside now. 7:21 pm. i stood up and walked downstairs.

i saw all the kids and Grayson eating pizza from dominoes. Grayson handed me a plate with 2 slices of cheese and pecked my lips.

i smiled and sat down in between him and Avery. i fed her tiny pieces of mine like i always do.

"mommy, Caleb said that daddy told him baby brother is up in the sky. when will he come back to see us?" Hadley asked. i looked at Grayson and felt my eyes start to water.

"he won't come back but one day, you'll go up to see him and you will get to be with him for forever." Grayson explained. she smiled and ate another bite of pizza.

they all started saying jokes and talking. i smiled for the first time since we lost the baby. i looked at Grayson and saw he was already staring at me.

i blushed and looked back down at my plate. he squeezed my hand under the table, making me smile even more.

"mom, can we go to the mall tomorrow?" Bailey asked. i looked up and nodded my head.

"yeah. we'll go around noon though." she smiled and nodded her head.

"can we have movie night!" Lea asked. i looked at Grayson and he said yes. once we were all done, i cleaned the kitchen up while everyone else got the movie set up, with pillows and blankets.

i walked into the living room and saw Bailey and Tyler cuddled up on the end, with Lea and Hadley in each of Grayson's arms. Avery was laying in her rocker, asleep and Caleb was playing on Grayson's phone.

i walked over to Caleb and lifted him up, making him squeal. i laughed and kissed his cheeks before popping down on the couch next to Grayson. they had Moana pulled up on the Tv and i grabbed a blanket, cuddling up to Caleb.

i love nights like these. even if i've had the absolute worst week, i can always spend time with my family and they make me feel 1000 percent better. i kissed Caleb's forehead and we all watched the movie.

sorry i posted a lot but i have a bunch of drafts and i wanted to get them uploaded.