Yullen Weel 2k14

Halcyon

Hey guys! It's yullen week! And as a huge fan of yullen I am obligated to participate in this wonderful week! I'll try to have all the themes up on time, hopefully ;u; I might do the alternative themes as well as these but then again every time I try to do that I get lazy. Anyways, onto the disclaimers and whatnot!

Disclaimer: I do not own DGM i swear. I wont post this on other chapters so please know it is not mine.

Halcyon: A period of time in the past that was idyllically happy and peaceful

As far as I may recall, there has never been a truly happy time in my life. Maybe I am just unlucky?

Perhaps.

Most of the people I call "Family" are either dead or might as well be.

The wind is blowing especially hard tonight, I can hear it's low hum through the windows. The trees are rustling in the darkness, people are getting home from late night jobs... You would think that would not able to hear these things in the state I was, but I could. I was conscious, though hardly so.

Johnny's hand was very warm around mine, and it was beginning to make my hand a bit sweaty. I didn't like it, but I couldn't pull away. My body refused to do anything, all of it's energy gone into fighting the pest inside me.

I knew you were sitting on the couch, and though I was unable to see you, I knew you were concerned. Call me crazy, but I could feel it.

Say whatever you want, but I knew I was special to you, that you cared for me like you cared for Lenalee and Alma. However, unlike most people, I didn't like that I was because it meant that I could never get away from you, that once your pissy ass got attached to me I'd return the feeling. I hate you, but apparently not enough to get rid of this leech that Lenalee said was "Love" whenever she talked about her romance movies that I came to like.

I want to give you a hug that lasts for centuries, while simultaneously wanting to stab your arm with a rusty nail. It's your fault that I'm turning into a noah, but while I should be angry at you for that, I can only think about how happy I am that you came looking for me.

If you haven't already noticed, my head is in a jumble right now because of all of this, and in all honesty its probably putting a damper on my fight against Neah.

Remember when we went to Mater? Rhetorical question, I know you know since you went there with Alma, but you have no idea how much I hated how happy I felt when you remembered. But the only feeling that actually stuck with me was the happiness. I only ever remember our good times, the times you and I were truly happy working together. To outsiders, that may not seem like a lot considering we're always fighting. However, to us (and I know you feel the same way) every moment we fought, every moment we worked together, every word we said to eachother no matter how harsh was a memory I kept and cherished forever. I hate that I do this, I wish this feeling would go away, but I know it never will. I can only be left to reminisce on our halcyons.