If Loving You Had A Price I Would Pay My Life For You

Chapter 20: Play for BK

Bey P.O.V.

They rolled my daughter off to the emergency room and I just stood  there and cried. I felt so stupid and ashamed of what had happened minutes before my own child wanted to take her life. My baby girl, my youngest child, my only daughter she needed me and what did I do? I wasn't there for her. I sat down with my husband and kids and just cried into Jay's chest. I looked down at what he was reading and it was a note with Brooklyn's hand writing.

"To my parents that I love very much I am sorrry for what I have done to this family, but I hope you knew this day was gonna happen, but y'all were too naiive to notice that inside I was slowly dying, but instead you focused on Jayson and your carrer. I wish I never sent those thing to him, but when I needed or wanted attention he was there when no one else was so I gave my all to Kameron. My brothers bestfriend. I'm sorry I hurt my brother and ruined his reputation and God forgive me of my sins, but I think I'm better off not in this world then be here. Momma hates me she kinda said it her self. She was so upset that I was exposed and she was just so angry and dad he couldn't even look at me or comfort me like a dad would. Jayson protected me something he should've done. Goodbye Carter family maybe I'll see you in heaven. I love you, Brooklyn Giselle Carter."

"Did she tell you guys about how she felt about us?" I asked looking at the boys. Jayden looked up at me with watery eyes and nodded his head. By now I was in full blown tears. I wasn't there for her. She thought that I hated her. I didn't love her enough like she wanted from me, I wasn't there when she needed me. She trusted Kameron instead of her own mother. I was supposed to make sure she was fine and she wasn't. All the times she told me she was fine was a lie and I couldn't see it. My own damn kids seen it before me and I'm supposed to be her mother. I'm supposed to see all the changes she goes through, but I missed it all, because I was so damn focused on touring, releasing albums and Jayson going to college I wasn't paying attention to my other kids.

"Family of Brooklyn Carter?" We all stood up and the doctor walked over to us. "Are you the parents?" "Yes" Jay answered. "Well there was alot of water inside of your daughters lungs, but we managed to get the water out of her lungs, but while she was in surgery we had to revive her twice and now she is in a coma, but there would be a chance your daughter might not wake up any time soon." I was some what relieved that she was alive, but I won't get to hear her voice or laugh.

"Would you like to see her?" We all nodded and the doctor lead us to her room 5043. When we walked in I couldn't handle it. All the tubes and IV's hooked up to her just broke my heart. I hated seeing her like this and I never wanna see any of my kids like this ever. My hand cupped over my mouth and I sat by her beside and grabbed her hand wishing she would grip on to it.

I just looked at her and memories just flooded my head. "Hey baby girl. We are all here for you when you wake up. We love you Brookie." I said on the verge of tears. "Boys let's give your mom a minute." Jay said and they all left me alone with my baby.

"Hey Brookie I don't know if you could hear me or not, but I'm sorry. I am a bad mother I never gave you the love and affection you needed from me. I'm sorry about what I said to you. You didn't deserve all of that baby girl. Remember when you were little and we used to sing all the songs that came on the radio? You were so happy and joyful I almost forgot your laugh, but I could never forget your laugh." I laughed a little and I  looked up at her and she wasn't smiling.

"I wish I never pushed you to your limit where you wanted to kill yourself. I would do anything just to hold you again." I wipped my eyes and squeezed her hand. "I'll be here waiting on you baby girl just get back to me quickly." I got up and kissed her forehead and left out the room as Jay went in. Junior walked over to me and I opened my arms up and he cried unto my chest and I rubbed his back and cried with him.

Jay P.O.V.

"I should've known there was something wrong the first time you sung to me. I felt like something was wrong, but I didn't react off of it. I should have protected you like a father should have, but I didn't and I am so sorry baby girl. I'm gonna be here waiting for you to come back to us, but baby girl you broke my heart. Seeing and finding you in that bathtub and hearing you not breathe broke me, but I'm praying for you to get better Brookie." The doctor walked in and he asked to talk to me outside.

"Uh yes is everything alright?" I asked and the doctor gave me an unsure look. "Did you ever notice any minor setbacks with your daughter as in throwing up or an increase in her diet?" I shook my head. "Well it seems to me that your daughter was once pregnant." I went into shock, but then I looked back at him. "What do you mean  once?" "It means she was pregnant, but she miscarried when she tried to commit suicide. She was two months to be exact" Damn was all I could say in my head.

"I suggest you tell her when she wakes up." I nodded and the doctor walked away. My first grandchild belonged to my youngest child who is 14. I went backinto Brooklyn's room, but I heard Jayson in there so I stayed quiet and listened.

Jayson P.O.V.

"You know I kinda felt like you and Kam had a thing going on, but I never thought it was real. I seen the way y'all looked at each other when y'all thought I wasn't watching and he was a little too pissed when you was talking to Dylan, but it never occured to me that all of these sex tales he would tell me and the guys were about you. He is so damn stupid and I'm sorry I didn't protect you from him. I mean who would want to stay the night for a full week." I chuckled and gripped my sisters hand.

"Remember the long conversations we used to have just talking about random things, then we talked about when we got older we would travel the world helping kids all over the world. Well Brookie Imma need you to wake up so we could accomplish that. I have a basketball game in three weeks and you promised you would be there. I love you Brooklyn and I don't want you to die. When I saw dad holding you and you not breathing I wanted to just burst into tears, but I had to stay strong, but I don't wanna stay strong any more. I just want my little sister to give me a hug." I started crying and I placed my forhead on Brooklyn's hand and just let it all out. I felt a firm hand on my back and I turned and looked up to see my dad.

"She was pregnant." He said looking at her. I looked at Brooklyn as well, but I was kinda confused. "Who?" He sighed and I heard him stratch his head. "Brooklyn was 2 months pregnant with Kamerons child, but she miscarried when she tried to commit suicide." I was in complete shock. This nigga fucked my sister, exposed her and got her pregnant, shit wait till I see his ass bet he won't be walking for a good 3 months and I gurantte that. "I think you should tell her when she wakes up since y'all are so close to each other." I nodded and rested my chin on Brooklyns hand and just stared at her.

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It has been 3 weeks and from what I have heard Brooklyn still hasn't woken up and it's my first and last first game as a senior in high school. All the guys on Varsity, Junior Varsity and the freshman team had on #PLAY4BK warm-up shirts on. I got a wrist band that says the same thing so I could play with it on during the game. The game overall was good, until we got to the 4th quarter when I was fouled. The ref called it a tech and everyone was quiet as I shot. I missed the first shot and then I heard little screams and noises, but I stayed focus and as I was about to shoot again I was happier then ever.

"You got it big bro." I turned around and saw Brooklyn standing there with a smile on her face. I dropped the basketball and hugged her tight lifting her off the floor and started crying happy tears. "I promised I would come to your first game." She whispered in my ear and I laughed and gripped her tighter. Happy that I got my wish. A hug from my little sister