The Beauty in the Beast

I Only Need Me in the End

Have you ever had

such intense feelings for someone

and they never seem to meet your energy?

He was that.

I gave him all of my energy

and he gave me none

and that 

didn't even hurt after all

it surprises me sometimes 

how used to being disappointed I am

that instead of feeling hurt

I simply didn't feel

I simply turned those possible emotions off 

and went about my day.

He made me believe he was someone that he isn't

wasn't 

since he doesn't deserve a place in my life anymore.

It shocks me how 'heartless' I can be now

How I'm finally putting myself above others when it comes to situations

like this

situations where I was purely me and they were purely not 

and they hurt me

but I should apologize and see what's wrong in their life... 

right?

You are the only person who is there for your always

so stop making it seem like other people are worth more to you

than yourself

because they will disappoint you

I mean you will disappoint yourself too

but the difference is

you can change yourself for yourself

but you can't change others to fit you.