Sometimes

Red.

When one step forward turn around and look in the mirror. I look back and I over think the future cause I fear the past. I don't think of much of a future and when I do I think to much like my father. If something goes wrong would I have to go up there or if Dies up there I didn't say goodbye. I just wanna fly maybe be a bird flying with the seasons like a hibernating bear. Okay well if everything goes well. if I were to die or anything here while they are gone they wouldn't notice not from so far away. Like a train loud noises drown out the pain. They barely talk to me now. As is. Amanda can can make new friends it seems to be easy from her like a kitten in a field harmless cute. I mean next school year could be so messed up. I'm gonna be a senior supposed to be the predictor but I still feel like the prey . Trent didn't even want talk to me when I needed something and he promised. But what am I kidding those promises where all thrown away so why do I try to keep them if no one else dose even with broken friendships. It's like a flame we put a while ago the smoke still in the air.