MAGIC

goodbye, packing and confessions

~Mila~

Everything is a mess now. Like you know the Bebe Rexha song 'I'm a mess'? Yeah, that should be playing in the background now. 

Last night was horrible. I cried like a total baby when I told myself I wouldn't. But as soon as Anaya saw me, she knew something was wrong, and I knew the waterworks were inevitable when I saw her. 

I know I said the same old saying 'if you love someone you let them go' but that's a stupid saying. If you let them go, who are you supposed to love then? Stupid, I know. They are just sayings, and sometimes, sayings do shit. They make zero sense, and sometimes hurt too much. 

And the worst thing? We have to move back to India because of an 'emergency'. Great, I can't even spend the last week with Caleb. When we came back home after our spying and the news of Caleb going away, this was the first thing mom said to us. There's some emergency at Dad's job and some more stupid things, so right now, I am repacking my bag. Good thing I never unpacked. 

Mom doesn't want to leave either, after all we are seeing Anaya after such a long time. But she also needs to support dad, and it seems pretty serious. Dad never freaks out or cuts a trip short for some stupid official things. He is the chill kind of person, but right now he is pretty tensed. 

Anaya had celled the boys, Caleb and Aaron, and they are on their way here. To be honest, I am high key shit at goodbyes. I never know what to say or how to say. And absolutely have no idea about how to say goodbye to the person you love. 

Should I Google? YouTube maybe? Leave it, only time will tell. Hopefully. 

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The doorbell rings indicating the brothers are here. 

"I'll get it" Anaya says as she probably senses I don't want to get up from the floor. If I could, I would lay here for the next forty years. I nod at her and continue my packing, mostly packing what I bought here, and most of them are chocolates... 

The sound of the door opening, feet padding, more like running against the floor can be heard and in a moment the door to our room, now once again Anaya's room flies open and there stands Caleb at the doorstep, looking as good as ever. 

Something about seeing him, standing there at the doorway, in his sweats made me want to just disappear and never come back. His warm brown eyes looking down at me with the same affection it held the first time we met at the airport and his hair still in a mess, it looks like he was in a hurry. I love this boy, this guy standing right here in front of me and I want him to hold me like he did yesterday in his apartment and stay like that for the rest of my life. But life ain't easy, it throws the hardest and biggest rock when you're least expecting them. 

"Mils.." he crouches down next to me and I scoot closer to him, leaning into his amazing scent. He takes me in and cages my body in his strong arms. We stay like that, my head resting on his chest and his palm running against my back. He kisses the side of my head and brings me even closer to him. 

"I don't want to but-" he cuts me off. "Sh it's okay" he says and I sigh. 

"Why is it happening Caleb?" I ask him and feel his chest rise up, as if he is taking in a huge breath. I know he is thinking the same. 

"Mils, the universe isn't fair and maybe it's testing us now. To see if we are strong enough, but I love you and I always will, you need to know that" he says with a level sincerity I have never seen on him. I turn my head a bit to take a good look of him and he is staring right in front of him. 

"I love you too, and it's crazy given we have known each other for less than a month" I tell him. 

He chuckles, "I actually used to stalk you on Instagram and gosh I hated any guy who commented on your posts" he says and I stare at him crazy. 

"You did not" I say and he smiles sheepishly. 

"Oh I did" he winks and I blush in embarrassment because even I know how stupid my posts are and oh God the captions. Damn it, he saw it all. Can't say I didn't stalk him when I found out his profile, but given he has only eleven posts, six of them are of him holding a camera, its not the same. 

A moment later, we were engulfed by silence once again. I can hear Aaron talking to mom and dad and I'm thankful they decided to leave us alone. I need to be with Caleb now. 

"So... I've a confession to make" he begins and I motion at him to continue. 

"I want you to know that this might be three years and shit can go down in three years, so I need you to have faith in me because I'll be back" he says and honestly I'm not exactly sure what he is talking about but I have a feeling he just wants my trust. 

"I'll be waiting for you then" even I know three years can end the world, but that's what love does to you. You want to take chances, take risks and see what life has in store for you. 

"I love you so much" he leans in and steals a small kiss from me. Nope, if it is the last time, I want more. I pull him by the collar of his shirt and smash my lips against his, as if he was waiting, he gently grabs my waist and takes control. 

Gosh I will miss him. 

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A/N: One more chapter to go...