broken ;;

sad

"Depression is not what you see but its what you dont."

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"hey you ungrateful son, why do you always had to embarass me? Why do you always cause trouble? Do i not feed you well? Or are you not satisfied to what i gave you? You want more, right?"

Another hit was thrown,

Followed by another,

'oh i must have done wrong again, i shouldnt have eaten my friend's lunch, but i was hungry and he insisted that i can eat his? Maybe that was wrong, i should not disturb others then.'

Tears starting to fall of the little boy's face.

'no dont cry, im at fault, naughty boys cant cry, they dont deserve it'

"what did you do to him? Our neighbour saw you and said you took your friend's lunch and eat it by yourself. How little money did i gave you for you to take someone else's food?"

"im sorry, mom. I was wrong, please forgive me"

He never forgives himself for embarassing his own parents.

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"now you sleep at class? Shame on you, you never listen dont you? What did i do to deserve a son like you!? Im ashamed of you."

Another hit across the eight year old boy's face.

He didnt mean to sleep in class but he didnt get any sleep last night that because he was afraid, afraid that the monsters under his bed will kill him, but wht can he do? He still was just an eight years old boy who doesnt even know what the outside world was. So he slept at the back of the class and his neighbour who goes to the same school as him saw and reported to his father. Again.

"sleep at exactly 10 pm from now on, if you sleep again at school, you know what will happen." He's father said.

'oh im not suppose to sleep at class, im embarassing my parents again,'

"im sorry," said the boy followed by a quiet sob, blaming himself for being the embarassment of the family.

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"why are you so afraid? Why cant you ever do anything right? Go upstairs with the lights off and dont come down until tomorrow morning!" he shouts, scaring the nine year old kid even more.

He runs upstairs, scared for his life and faced the seemingly terrifying darkness that he hates so much.

He's scared but what can a nine year old do? Run back down is his only option.

But what awaits down the last staircase?

"I SAID GET UPSTAIRS! YOU DONT WANT TO?! I'LL MAKE YOU DO IT!" The man dragged his nine year old up the stairs and shoved him inside his room.
"be a big man, dont embarass me again,"
Now, the boy was truly alone.

'no no dont cry, you are supposed to be a big boy, not a coward boy, be brave, that way, you will not be an embarassment to your family. So stop crying'

There he sat infront of the door repeating those words 'dont cry' while hugging his body, the only thing he can do at that time.

All of this for his entire childhood.

///

"lets go out, family bonding time"

"no, i dont want to" the now sixteen year old boy said with no interest at all.

"You follow what i say! I said we're going out and thats final!" roared his father.

He still is their child afterall.

///

"HEY! NO YOU CANT DO THAT!" the boy screamed at his younger brother. See this? You know what he became? What the nine year old, seven years ago endured?

But what did the parents said?

"WHO ARE YOU TO GET MAD AT YOUR BROTHER? WHY CANT YOU DO ANYTHING RIGHT?!" then she kissed the younger one but slapped the later.

'but wasnt that the right thing to do? You thought me that right? But why did i get slapped again? I did wrong? Or maybe i should just dissapear from the world? Maybe that would finally satisfy my parents? I should shouldnt i?'

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The seventeen year old boy cried, but why? He cried and cried and when suddenly his mother saw, you think she will hug him? Saying its okay, thats a part of life?

Youre damn wrong.

She yelled at him. Saying that "youre not supposed to cry, youre still young, you wont be depressed, man up!"

And what did his father did when he heard this?

He consficated all of his belongings, banned him from doing anything, took his phone saying that he should only focus in studying not some petty little thing.

Petty little thing? The one that broke his heart, the one that ruined his whole life? The one that made him want to rest forever?

All the kids are depressed