Eddie Oneshots (It)

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requested by: no one

pairing: streddie
(sorry again. i love it)

a/f: it's so angsty

trigger warnings:
panic attacks, past self harm, self harm, suicidal thoughts, abuse, use of the word "fxg" almost suicide attempt

date: july 6 2020

side note: i love eddie angst so you're gonna get a lot of that in this chapter. and badass eddie. also don't hate me for this chapter.

summary:
uh richie and stan catch eddie doing some sad things and other sad things happen

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you're not loved

richie and stan don't love you

the losers don't care for you

they would be happier without you

no ones love you

just do it

"stop" eddie sobbed pulling his hair. these words were repeating themselves over and over again in eddies head.
he wanted to make them go away. he didn't know what to do. he could feel a panic attack coming on.

his mind went straight to self harming. he hadn't thought about doing it in months. not ever since him, richie, and stan got together. they didn't know about it and he didn't want them to know so he stopped.

he looked around his bathroom and grabbed a razor.

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he woke up the next day with a bad headache and sore arms. he looked down and saw all the cuts he made. he got up and got ready for school.

he put on black ripped jeans and a sweatshirt. he finished getting ready and went outside to wait.

after a couple minutes he saw richie and stan pull up in richies car. he sat down in the back and closed his eyes.

"hey babe, you okay?" richie turned around.
"yeah i'm fine. just tired," he lied. richie just left it at that and started the car.

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eddie was only in fourth period when his sleeve came up. some of the kids saw his arm and laughed. he brushed it off and sat down. he saw his boyfriends come in and sit in their assigned seats.

halfway through class he could hear the kids behind him laugh and whisper things about him.
he tried to focus on the lesson but he could still hear them.

he just got all his stuff and stood up, "where do you think you're going edward?" the teacher said. stan and richie turned around to look at him.

"i'm leaving. this class is bullshit anyways," he said as he walked out. he could hear the teacher yell for him but he kept walking.

he skipped the rest of the day and walked home. he ignored all the messages from his boyfriends and friends.

his mom got a call from the school telling her what had happened. she got into an argument with eddie, it ended up with her hitting him in the eye.