Still Madness [Book 2]

Chapter 5.

I don't want to accept the fact na ako nga ang ama ng pinagbubuntis ni Jenina.. But come to think of it.. His uncle and his men kidnapped me to be forced to marry her because of it.

I've heard it all. His uncle's thinking of the money that comes with me, kaya mas pinupursue nila. They got me prisoned for almost two months para pahirapan ako. They want me to willingly say yes, para matapos na paghihirap ko.

But i escaped.

Sa halos dalawang buwan ko na nakidnap ako, dalawang beses ko lang nakita si Jenina. Two days after I was kidnapped, she showed herself. Doon ko nalaman na buntis sya. Doon ko nalamam kung bakit ako pina kidnap ng uncle nya.

She told me na hindi nya gusto ang pagkidnap sa akin ng uncle nya pero wala syang choice dahil nalaman nga daw sa kanila ang sitwasyon nya. They sent her off to me para makipagbalikan, pero ayoko.

When they learned na magpapakasal na ako, doon nila plinano na kunin ako. Galit na galit ako noon. Just by thinking of what Elise felt that day, pakiramdam ko may malaking parte ng pagkatao ko ang nawala.

I told them I can be responsible for the baby if it's mine. There's a bigger chance na akin nga ang pinagbubuntis ni Jenina dahil kami noong mabuo iyon. If she had the guts to see another man habang kami, i won't know how she did that dahil madalas kaming magkasama.

Jenina's threat could be nothing.. Kung wala ako'ng kunsensya. Anak ko man iyon o hindi, paano ko maaatim na hayaan syang saktan ang bata? Or kung empty threat man iyon at anak ko nga ang pinagbubuntis nya.. She's still the mother! At paano kung hindi nya ipakita ang anak ko?

I love Elise so much. At takot na takot ako na malaman nya na buntis si Jenina. She would believe it's mine. And if it's really mine, hindi ko iyon itatanggi. Pero paano kung iwan ako ni Elise? Hindi ko kaya.

I was so damn torn.

Marrying Elise will be one of the greates pleasure on earth I would want. And I will. Hindi nawala sa plano ko ang pakasalan sya.

But I want to make sure that the baby will be safe. I can trick Jenina into giving me the baby. Anak ko man iyon o hindi, maaaring saktan nya ang bata  and I can't let that happened! That woman's crazy.

I would want Elise to understand. Sana maintindihan nya. But I can't tell him anything right now. I have to be certain. I don't want to scare her away of the fact na buntis si Jenina. All of this is too much.

Wala ako pinagsabihan na kasabwat si Jenina because I wanted to know the truth. Kahapon lang ay tumawag ako ng tao para hanapin sya. Kapag nahanap ko na sya, and know that the baby can be safe, there's no stopping me to marry Elise.

But right now.. Alam ko na nasaktan si Elise nang makita nya ang reaction ko. It was sudden. Hindi naman nya siguro inisip na hindi ko na sya papakasalan because I'd be damned. Gusto ko rin na mas malaki at marangya ang kasal namin this time.

I know na kahit na kidnap ako bago kami ikasal ay may kahihiyan pa rin na nangyari sa ibang tao. When Jared and everyone visited me in the hospital, they all told me na may nag isip na ayaw ko daw talaga makasal kay Elise and that's my escape.

That's just plain foolish.

I wanted to give Elise the grandest wedding. Gusto ko ipangalandakan sa mundo na ikakasal ako sa kanya at ikakasal sya sa akin. Everyone should know that I belong only to her and her, only to me. That's the least I can do for what happened last time.

At mangyayari iyon kapag nahanap ko na si Jenina.

"A-Ayaw mo na ba?" Bumalik sa kasalukuyan ang isip ko when I heard Elise asked that.