Lowkey (SeoWon AU)

Part 15

KIM JI WON's POV

Not a night goes by that I don't think about what happened a week ago. The memory would come around when I'm alone, I would always feel like someone is watching me and is ready to attack anytime. Faces of the men who forcefully kissed me would suddenly flash in my head and I would start crying in the middle of the night with no one to talk to.

I haven't left my apartment for days and didn't even talk to anybody. Ga Eun would come over sometimes and talk to me, but the trauma seems to come back when she leaves. Ha Neul also tried to reach out to me and even offered to stay with me but I refused because I just don't want to keep being a burden to anybody. My parents would call me but it's hard to pretend like you're doing fine in-front of them when you're actually not. I didn't tell them about what happened because I don't want them to worry about me. No one knows about that incident except for Ga Eun, Ha Neul and Seo Joon.

Speaking of Seo Joon, I haven't even thanked him and I haven't heard from him since then. The last thing I remembered was him whispering "I wish I could be the one to take you home" but my mind probably just made that up because I was a bit intoxicated that night.

I guess the only way to get over this trauma is to overwork myself so I could somehow forget about it.

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I decided to finally meet up with Ga Eun for a meeting on my new commercial, she was hesitant at first thinking I need more rest but I explained to her how 'being alone' just triggers my trauma. But all throughout the meeting I was just zoning out, I kept thinking what would have happened if Seo Joon didn't hear me. Would I still be here?

"Ji Won, are you alright?" Ga Eun whispered, she probably noticed I was not listening anymore.

"Do you still have Seo Joon's number?" I asked which caught her off guard. She looked at me confused but then started going through the contacts on her phone.

"Uhh... yes. Why?" She stuttered.

"I need to talk to him." I answered bluntly.

Ga Eun looked at me still confused at my sudden demand as she hesitantly gave her phone to me and then I copied Seo Joon's number into my phone.

"Seo Joon might have changed his number so..." Ga Eun reminded me.

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After the meeting, I decided to go on a café alone, Ga Eun insisted that she'd go with me but I declined for the reason I was going to invite Seo Joon over. I just really have to thank him and also apologize for what happened.

I have been looking at his number for hours now, should I really call him? But what if he's busy? What if he changed his number? What if somebody else is holding his phone? God, my anxiety is starting to kick in.

You know what Ji Won? Just do it!

And without a second thought, I quickly pressed the call button.

First ring...

Second ring...

Third ring... I guess he's not going to ans-

"Hello?" I hear his voice from the other line.

"Uh...uh..." should I actually do this?

"Hello? Who's this?" He calmly asked.

"Uhmm..." say something, Ji Won!

"I think you called the wrong number-"

"Park Seo Joon!" I finally spoke.

"Who is this?"

"It's me... Kim Ji Won." I answered lowly.

"Ji Won?" I can tell he was surprised.

"Can I talk to you?" Why do I feel like a high schooler asking his crush out?

"Sure... sure!"

I gave him the name and address of the café and now I just have to wait.

PARK SEO JOON's POV

Kim Ji Won suddenly asking me to talk to her was something I never knew would happen. I guess it has something to do with what happened at the afterparty, I can tell from her voice that she was still traumatized, and as someone who had a past with her, I need to be there by her side.

When I arrived at the café where she told me to meet her, I knew exactly where she was. She never wanted to sit anywhere but at the right corner, and that's where she is. She was looking at the other side of the room emotionless. I wish I could wash away her worries and carry her burdens for her.

"Ji Won..." I softly said to catch her attention.

"Oh, you came." She looked at me shocked, maybe she thought I was going to ditch her.

"H-how are you?" I asked as I sat across her.

"I'm okay, I just really want to thank you and to apologize for what happened." She said which came out as a whisper.

"Ji Won, I know you're not okay." I stated as she looked at me and then looked down.

"I just don't know what would've happened to me if you didn't..." she whimpered as tears started falling down her face.

I stood up ,grabbed a chair and placed it beside her as I lightly rubbed her back which only made her cry more. She is so fragile, the more I want to protect her. I then pulled her to my body and let her head rest on my chest. I don't want to catch attention from anybody and having a tall frame is an advantage to help me hide Ji Won who was now heavily crying. I suddenly went stiff when she put her arms around my waist and buried her face in my chest.

"I don't want to ruin the relationship you have right now, Seo Joon, I really don't... but can we at least stay friends?" She murmured as she slowly let go of me.

I don't know what to say, I wanted to tell her that I would throw my relationship away for her but I know Ji Won is not that selfish. And I feel like he's happy with Ha Neul now...

"I'm always your one call away, Ji Won." I forced a smile.

It's too hard to say that when two years ago you said the same thing to her until you both stopped talking and now she's back but I'm already engaged.

She smiled at me and this time I smiled at her genuinely. I miss that smile so much. I miss being the reason for her smile.

"I missed you Seo Joon, I really do-" she was cut off when someone called her. She looked at her phone then looked at me... her smile suddenly faded  "I have to go! I'll see you again, right?" She asked with a hopeful smile.

"Of course." I stated.

She quickly stood up from her chair and walked towards the door of the café , I looked at her carefully until she got out. When I was about to leave, I noticed a purse on the table, I guess it is Ji Won's. Maybe she hasn't left yet. I ran outside to be able to catch up with her. When I got out, I  saw her still standing in-front of her car. Thank God. When I was already a meter away from her, I saw her video-chatting someone on her phone, it would feel like i'm eavesdropping if I go further so I just have to quickly hand her her purse, right? Just when I was about to give it to her-

"Eomma! Eomma!" A child's voice suddenly exclaimed, but why is he calling her 'mom'? Oh, it's probably one of her nephews-

"Hi my sweet baby, I miss you."

What?

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Oh my God! It took me forever to update  because wattpad literally won't let me log in into my account. I am so sorry 😐

I will try to not let you wait for a long time for the next chapters, i hope my wattpad wouldn't crash again though.

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